Walking With His Love

Guess...

2011-04-13T03:22:00.000-07:00

it's enough tears for today. Don't you think so? :')

His Ways and Not Mine

2011-01-18T02:23:00.000-08:00

I remembered suddenly yesterday about what Pastor Julie said during camp, "Let God be God". I know this even way before youth camp, but never seem to do what is being said. Many times in life, I like to have things my own way or even do things my own way. And sometimes even go ahead of God's plan and decide something for myself. The very lesson that I learnt from not "Letting God be God" was last year.

I've always had this desire to have a family of my own ever since I was 12. It is my heart's desire obviously. But in the process, I don't want to do the wrong thing or be with the wrong person just because of this desire of mine (which becomes dangerous if I give into my own heart and ways). Fell in love last year, felt that it was really special. Prayed about it and asked God, but I was too impatient for the answer. Concluded that he might be the one for me and practically led each other on for quite awhile. At the end, it bruised me so bad. Cause as I was happily ignoring God's answer and could only hear what I WANT and not what GOD WANTS. And yes, at the end, God had to speak to me REAL LOUDLY, and it hit me with a BANG.

I told myself over and over again, the next guy that I fall for, I'm going to pray, pray and PRAY until God answers! I'm going to WAIT patiently and not make a move. But just let God lead things where He wants it to be. Not going to make the same mistake over again. Just letting Him be Him right now. At the same time, enjoying my singlehood as much as I can :) At this time, I just want to seek Him first and not bother about the things where He won't be giving to me at this time yet. Gonna trust in His ways and His timing in my life. Because He knows best! :)

I don't want to be led astray just because of what I want or what my heart desires. That, in my opinion, would be the saddest thing ever to happen. It's not wrong to desire to get married and stuff, but it becomes wrong when God is not the center of attention of it (get what I mean?). If I were to be with someone, it has got to be God's plan, timing and way. And no, no other than that! I want to lead life now, trusting Him, following Him wherever He leads me and waiting patiently for my PRESSIE to come one day! :) <3

"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matt 6:33

Peace

2011-01-11T07:13:00.000-08:00

So adorable :)

I'd like to think that my path in life has beauitful cherry blossom trees for me to see as I'm walking.. <3

Always loved autumn..

Love them.. :)

"I know I'm a dreamer, but it's never wrong to do so anyway.."

Go away..!

2011-01-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

Do not approach or reach out to me if you never plan on knowing me truthfully and sincerely.
Do not be utterly nice or sweet to me unless you know you've got feelings for me.
Do not touch me if you don't intend to give me a signal of how you feel about me.
Do not purposely do things that'll trigger my curiosity towards you if you do not intend on making me fall for you.
Do not barge into my life if you never intend on staying...

P.S- GO AWAY jerks! I'm not playing games.. So unless you wanna lose and bleed, don't even dare do such things to me. Please and thank you ;)

Trying too much?

2011-01-04T04:28:00.000-08:00

A lot of us try to be someone that we're not when we've fallen for someone who is the complete opposite of us. True that I am no stranger to this fact, cause I've been there done that. If the fella likes football, then you would TRY to love it as well. Wake up at 4.30am to watch the latest game just so that you can keep up with him. TRYING to stay awake even though you can barely survive after watching the game for only 5 mins! Purposely went to buy his favourite football team jersey so that you think you would have something in common. You start playing football even though you hate it and you so don't want to run around just to chase after a ball. Hmmm.. sounds familiar?? ;)

It could be other things as well, like his taste in music. Though he likes heavy rock and you used to BASH that type of music genre, and now you wanna TRY to LOVE it just because he does. Trying to turn yourself into the "hot stuff" that he likes and all that? Yeah.. I think all of us practically went through that phase in life. I have learned through all the heart breaks and crushing on guys, that you just need to be YOURSELF. No point trying to fit yourself into a bubble that you do not belong in. If the guy is really worth your feelings and emotions, he should see and love you for who you are!

So what if I don't like chess? So what if I don't like watching football? So what if I'm not THAT LAME? So what if I don't like to eat what he likes to it?? So what if I'm not the HOT STUFF in town?? So what if I like sappy love stories? So what if I like painting sceneries instead of drawing his FAVOURITE MANGA? So what if I like being a goofball? So what if I like to be quiet and stare into space sometimes? So what if I BURP like a dude sometimes? What you see is what you get man! And I love ME! <3>I contemplated and realized as I grew, the man whom God has chosen for me would not just appreciate and love me for my strengths. But he would love me for my weaknesses as well. He wouldn't compare me with other women because in his eyes', I am special in my own ways. Even when I act like a nutso and an oddball or a goofball. He would cherish and appreciate me for being me, even though I might just choke him up for making me mad! :P He would appreciate and love our differences. He would just hug me and reassure me that everything's going to be alright during bad times, cause he knows hugs are just what I need instead of words. He would stand up for me and laugh with me when I embarrass myself. He wouldn't mind just sitting by my side watching me paint my ugly paintings. He wouldn't mind teaching me some cool tricks that he knows (since many guys would think that women will just be women.. no?) He would encourage me to always trust and depend on God. And to give God more love than him. And the list can go on and on and on. Most of all, he would forever be true and be mine because we love through and with God's love. And for HE loved us first :))

So guys and girls, know that you are truly beautiful from the inside out no matter what people say or think about you. Cause the ones who truly love you and will forever stay, are those who do not expect you to be perfect, but those who see your imperfections as beautiful :) know that God created you as who you are for a reason. For He loves every bit and part of you :) Love yourself, otherwise, how are you able to truly love others? Hug yourself and give yourself some LOVE!! :)) <3

Awww... Quirky, but cute :) RAWR too! :P

" what makes you different, makes you beautiful.."

Watching...

2010-12-22T03:28:00.000-08:00

Watching everything pass me by, slowly but surely. Sometimes I wish I am able to grasp each beautiful detail of it. Sometimes I wish that I wouldn't just sit there and watch, but to be there and go through the pain with it. The eyes see and the heart yearns, but the body doesn't move. Shouldn't there be an instant reflex of action when the heart urges and yearns to do something?

And then I remember, the mind is there. It has always been the barrier to everything beautiful and hopeful. I wonder oh God, when will I be able to act upon the desires that You have put into my heart? To not think twice and second guess myself anymore. When will I be able to not hide my true feelings? To not be afraid or ashamed by what the world sees.

I need You to help me see, the beautiful of every bad ending. And the everlasting joy and peace of every good ending. Let my heart not be afraid anymore. Let my spirit and flesh move to every beat that You cause my heart to. I need You.. And so does my heart, Lord...

Always Seem To Be..

2010-11-30T06:27:00.000-08:00

Why is it that everytime there needs to be a boundary towards something that I feel? I'm always able to sense and feel it, but never able to touch and hold onto it. Sometimes it's just too frustating. Knowing that something is there but yet it's so far away. Felt it too many times, I'm tired and I'm getting sick of feeling this way for countless of times. Why can't this just be easy to start with?

I'm sick of just looking at it with silence. I wanna branch out and be able to make it MINE. But how? I just don't know what I can do. It aches and it pains me to feel this way again and again. I want to throw it back into the ocean and let it DROWN. But I think, I threw myself in with it...

God, save me....

My Role Model

2010-07-02T00:18:00.000-07:00

Besides than Jesus being ULTIMATE role model in life. My great grandma is my other role model on earth apart from my parents'. Shes 87 this year. Quite young for a great grandma huh? Yeah, I hear that a lot. As humans grow old, every part of our body shrinks. Even our organs. Its kind of normal for her to get sick and get admitted into the hospital. Especially when she has asthma. She is a strong, optimistic, cute, adorable, sweet and gentle soul :)... Shes been in and out of the hospital almost twice a year.

But, even when shes sick. Or in the hospital. She never fails to go to church every sunday, riding on her little old bike. Shes been all alone by herself for the past 25 years ever since her husband died(my great grandpa). Last night I wondered to myself, even with my family and friends around me. Yet, I feel lonely sometimes. And my great grandma has been alone by herself for 25 years. Washing, cooking and cleaning all by herself. I definitely believe that in her spare time, she talks to God a lot. And that's how I know why she doesn't feel alone at all. Because God, is really in her life. She told my mum before, that she sometimes misses her husband. But, because of God.. She is able to overcome the lonely times in her life. When I thought about that last night. I just thought to myself "Wow.. shes such an incredible woman.. I wanna grow to be just like her.." Despite her health and lack of physical support. She is still passionate about God. And even through the lonely times. The ONLY person she seeks, is GOD. I can't help but to cry thinking about it.

Because, its so powerful and yet touching at the same time. My great grandma definitely left something for me to grow on with. Which is to know, that God is with me 24/7. And even during the bad times, know that my faith, love and believe in Him will overcome ALL loneliness and difficulties. I know very well, that even as shes laying on the hospital bed right now. Shes thinking about God, and when she will go HOME:')... I know that she'll be fine for sure. Cause she never stops fighting. Shes a WARRIOR. A WARRIOR for GOD.

" I LOVE you great grandma... Get well soon.. :')"

2010-06-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

Giving up on LOVE means giving up on GOD. Giving up on GOD means giving up on LOVE. Yeah... you get the picture.. Its just so hard sometimes. I don't want to cry anymore Lord...

*praying*

2010-06-19T20:20:00.000-07:00

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." 1 Peter 5:6-10

:) =) =] :') =') =']

Change

2010-06-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

So much had happened lately and I just don't know where to start or what to say. Theres 2 things in life that I really dislike most. Which is CHANGE and REJECTION/BEING HURT. Well, been through quite a lot for this week and its just suddenly so heavy that I just somehow feel that I'm not strong enough to bear it. I admit that I did cry. But, it is through Him that I was able to pull through it step by step.

Right now, learning how to let go of some1 really dear to me is another task at hand. I really don't know if I can take another heartbreak or let another person go anymore. It feels like I've let go a lot of things in life. And every time that I do, it feels like something NEW. And every time it happens it is never easier. But harder. :')... I always hated the fact that I have to let something go even though I really love it. Who likes it anyway? But we have to when it just happens right?

Right now, I don't even know what I'm talking abt. Lol.. Its like, everything is splashed on a piece of paper but with very ugly colours. Went to church today and of course, its FATHER'S DAY!! =)... I really cried a lot becoz of what is happening. And at the same time, I felt really really really BAD becoz I'm crying while I should be joyful. Its Father's Day for goodness sake! And I'm suppose to wish my Father in Heaven a Happy Father's Day but instead I'm crying.. -.-"...

While I was crying, I kept saying to God. "Daddy... I'm really really sorry... I know that I shouldn't cry especially when its Father's Day. I'm really sorry that I'm crying right now.. I really am sorry. :'("... But my Father was gracious of me. He told me "Its okay... Just cry... Just don't give up.. DON'T GIVE UP!"... I can't help but to cry even MORE. I just felt like an UNDYING LOVE and SUPPORT from Him just POURED upon me. And I felt His hugs. When I felt all those, I just couldn't stop crying. I COULDN'T!! I HAVE to be STRONG not for myself but for GOD. Because He needs me just as much as I need HIM!!

Its not going to be easy. But I will DO MY BEST because my Father loves me! Right now, I will just take my time to heal while I look upon Him :')

"Letting go of you is the hardest thing for me right now. But doing it without God, would have killed me...."

Lord, I trust in You. Therefore, I lean on You and Your strength right now...

P.S- HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE FATHERS! AND TO YOU, DADDY IN HEAVEN ULTIMATELY!!! =)

*holding on to God*

Priorities

2010-06-08T20:54:00.000-07:00

What are your priorities in life? My aunt called me last night to ask if doing sound(AV stuff) is hard. Well, I just said "Its not really hard and its not really easy either. As long as you have the interest to do it. Then all is well.. :)"... When I told my mum that my aunt is thinking of joining the AV team in the Chinese church of Glad Tidings. My mum was like.. "she got time meh? her own 4 kids also cannot take care and now she wants to join the AV team ar??". If you guys don't know, my aunt is a divorced woman of 4 kids. 3 boys and 1 girl. Its really complicated and mind you that its not God's fault that they got divorced. ANYWAY, my aunt... how should I put it?.. According to my mum's "motherly" judgement. My aunt isn't a good mum.

She never really takes care of her kids and apparently, her kids aren't really her priority. (From my mum's analysis). But then I thought, what does serving God in the AV team has to do with her kids? So my mum explained that.. "I know ur aunt wants to serve God and all these kinds of stuff. But, do you think that, thats what God wants her to do now? Maybe God wants her to take care of her kids le? The bible says that WE as parents' are given the task to take care and nurture our kids as they are given to us as treasures by God. But is ur aunt doing what she is suppose to do? I believe that God would want us to serve Him with the right attitude and all things going accordingly in life. If she can't even do her part as a parent and perform the task at hand thats already given by God, how can you expect her to serve in the AV team? Wouldn't that be serving God hypocritically?"..

Those things that my mum asked me kind of got me thinking. Thats really true. Now, I understand why not everybody are actively involved in church. Coz, this might be part of the reason why. As in, they've got other priorities in life and stuff. But that doesn't mean that their not serving God. As a parent, they serve God by taking care of their treasures(children). Teenagers and kids, we serve God by getting good grades and obeying Him and our parents'. There are many ways that we can serve God and it doesn't always have to be in the church. Mum was right. And she also made a point that we gotta make our priorities right. If your gonna serve God. Serve Him with the right heart, attitude and life. Otherwise, you'll just be doing everything "half past 6" and I don't think that God would like that very much. Its either that your hot or cold and not lukewarn. So yea, setting my priorities RIGHT!

Priorities:-

1. God

2. Family & Studies

3. Church & Friends

4. Future boyfriend/husband

Yup, the things above are my priorities for now as a teenager. It may change after I get a job, get married and stuff. But God will always be NO.1!! =)

SET YOUR PRIORITIES RIGHT PEEPS!

The Place Where It All Started

2010-06-07T05:15:00.000-07:00

Went back last sat (5th of june) to my parents' hometown(perak, sitiawan) to witness and help out for my cousin bro's wedding(congrats! :) ). But, the wedding wasn't really my mum's purpose of going back. Neither was mine. My family had an astranged relationship with my grandparents' (mum's side). After what had happened 7 years ago. Yup, we didn't visit nor talk to them for SEVEN years! But, it really wasn't my parents' fault. What happened you ask? Sorry, too private. You would have to be a really close friend to find out ;)..

Anyway, as my bros, mum and I arrived at their house. I walked in 1st with 2 pairs of crocs on my hand(a gift for them from my mum). The 1st person I saw when I walked in was my grandpa. He was sitting down on a chair reading his newspaper(kampung style.. LOL!). He heard me walking in and he turned his head to see who was it. When he saw me and my bros, I think there was a 3 secs pause. I just said "Hi grandpa :)".. He looked at me and my bros and said "Hello.." And then he invited us in and stuff. Then my grandma came out from the kitchen. The 1st thing she did was, she held me and she looked at me up and down. And she said "Waaaa... hooi hooi grow up adi.. Such a big girl already.." I can feel tears rolling down my eyes as I saw her. Because, I just couldn't believe that I'm actually seeing her and my grandpa. I was just so overwhelmed by the whole thing.

And of course, they were really happy when they saw my mum. And of course, my mum was really happy too! =).. We all talked a little. And my grandpa and grandma brought us to the kitchen to have some food (kampung style.. haha!xD)... I'm telling you, my grandpa is THE best chef EVER! The food he cooks are just so DELICIOUS. Its not just delicious but it feels like HOME. =)... Then my bros and I went outside to look at the neighbourhood and stuff while my mum catches up with my grandparents'.

I have to say that God really has a plan for everything. Things may be really harsh at times in life but He has His plans. And He is never hear to harm us. What my parents' went through was really really really bad.. The thought of it sometimes, when I think about the side effects of what my parents' went through in my life. Really just brings tears to my eyes. But, God is ever so merciful and gracious to all of us. He did take some stuff but He didn't took everything. And from the little amount that He took. He gave us back even more than we expected :').. It was just that period of time that was tough... But through that 7 years of hardship.. God was always there. My parents' left Him a long time ago ever since they got married.

But He never left them. And He never denied them as they have denied Him. Even though they went through all these for 7 years. But to me, it was all worth it. The outcome of it all is beyond amazing. Without this experience, I would have never known God and His love. Without this experience, my parents' would have never gone back to God and learned their lessons in life. Without this experience, we wouldn't know what we have lost until we really lose it. (family, friends and loved ones).. I'm really thankful to God that even though the money was gone. But my parents' weren't gone. Coz, I could have lost them in this battle in life. But God shined His light on them and was with them through every trial and darkness in their lives. And even in mine as well as I was struggling to grow up without my parents' presence at home most of the time during those days.

One thing's for sure. HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER. AND HE IS FOREVER GRACIOUS & MERCIFUL! =)

Behind Closed Curtains

2010-06-03T01:06:00.000-07:00

Just finished watching the movie "Moulin Rouge" just now. I've seen this movie aired in Channel 413 a lot of times before. But, after watching half way I stopped. Why? Because, its ALL over the place. The costumes. lights. flashbacks, humans... EVERYTHING, were just such a HUGE CLASH. I got a bit of a headache everytime I watch it. Thats why I always stop half way. But today, I managed to finish it! Without trying to confuse myself too much with the colours, lights, flashback scenes, drama, singing, dancing and everything else. I finally understand what the movie means. It isn't just about "she sings, she dance and she dies".. But, its about LOVE.

Moulin Rouge is abit like Pride&Prejudice, but with a sad ending. The main character in this story died of a disease call "dry cough" which sort of means lung cancer as well. She and this man fell in love but their love was forbidden as she lives in a world where ppl think that they are BOUGHT to be valued and loved. She was bought by this DUKE who is powerful and filthy rich. To cut the long story short. The duke wanted to kill the man who love her if they continue to be together. At the end they got together in a most dramatical way on stage(you will have to watch the movie to get what I mean). When they were on stage, curtains were closed and the audiences applaud. But because of her disease, she died while the audiences were still applauding in front of closed curtains. But of course, before she took her last breath. She did said a few things to the man that she loves. Like "I love you..." this and that.. "write a story.. and I will always be with you..." etc etc.. You get the picture.

As I was watching the ending of the movie. I realized that many times in life. It seems like we're okay from the outside. But behind closed curtains and closed doors. We may be facing all the terrible and horrible things that ppl just do not know. Just like theatre. In front of the audience, we perform well and beautifully. Everything looks clean and perfect. But whats behind the backstage. We do not know. I just want to say, that whatever that you are going through behind closed curtains and doors. Some1 UP there knows what your going through. And He cares and loves you. So, never think that your alone. Because He is with you and He sees every tear that falls. Just believe in Him and trust that He will take care of everything. =)...

"And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us, a slain offering and sacrifice to God a sweet fragrance." Ephesians 5:2

Grief..

2010-06-02T06:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday wasn't really a good at all. Failed my driving test. Was so FRUSTATED becoz during practices, my slopes are good and okay... But during the exam... I didn't do well on the slope at all.. In fact, I released the clutch a bit too much and didn't step on the accelerator hard enough and the engine broke down-.-".. I thought I was SO going to pass yesterday but I didn't... -.-".... Even my driving instructor said that I was sure going to pass... Mana tau? This happened... Gggrrrr... How can I not be frustated? I was doing fine all the while and suddenly this crap happens! Haihz... I was really grieved about it...

And really wasn't satisfied at all. I felt even WORSE when one of the worker there (an old malay dude...) SO SARCASTICALLY said to me "Amoi~ turun turun... awak sudah buat cukup baik... sudah SANGAT baik la amoi~"... -.-!!... The way he said it was SO freaking sarcastic man!! I was so clueless on whats going on and was in a state of blurness already and yet this uncle came to me and tried to make fun of me... I wanted to just ask him to SHUT UP wei...

Anyway, went home and told my parents' about it at night... I got so worked up about it and got even MORE angrier... And I CANNOT believe that I cursed! Yes... for the 1st time in SUCH A LOONNGGG TIME... Emelia Cheng Voon Hooi cursed... -.-"... Nope.. not the F word.. But a mandarin word that my mum always used when shes EXTREMELY mad... And I have to say that after saying it.. I was NOT PROUD of myself at all. I could feel my Holy Spirit calling. He must've been like.. "Aiyo.. Emelia... why act on your grief??" Yup, I felt really bad. Went home to repent and apologize to God. The thing is, many times in our lives. Failure, challenges, problems, obstacles and etc can bring us down and we may allow grief to take over us. I really allowed it to take over me yesterday. I know that to you people, probably cursing and stuff is nothing. But do you realize that the more often you do it, the more you get addicted to it. From cursing, it can lead to hurting people around you or even yourself. And, its a RUDE thing to say.

So yea, what I've learned yesterday is to not let gried take over us. And any other negative emotions to drown us. I can say that I was kinda drowned by it yesterday. But I'm all okay now with His words and reminders. Thank You, God :)

"The intergrity of the upright guides them, but the unfaithful are destroyed by their duplicity." Proverbs 11:3

2010-05-26T05:17:00.000-07:00

Yeah... I Miss You :)

Chris Tomlin - Unfailing Love (with lyrics)

2010-05-23T22:03:00.000-07:00

When the song says, "And everything.. You hold in Your hand.. Still You make time for me.. I can't understand".. I truly cannot and can never understand why can God love me and YOU so much.. His love is just too overwhelming.. And its too MUCH... TOO MUCH... I just can't describe how much I love and adore You Lord.. Because of Your unfailing LOVE... Yeahh... Your unfailing LOVE..

Waiting... Hmmmpphh..

2010-05-22T05:31:00.000-07:00

hhhhmmmmphhss... I'm right here waiting... *smiles/pouts*

EXCITED!!

2010-05-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

YUP!! I'm really really REALLY EXCITED!! About what you say?? Guess la... guess guess guess... *clock ticking* *3 DAYS later....*

-.-"....

OKAY! nvm.. xD... I'm uber excited for COLLEGE!! YESH, COLLEGE!! I know its another few weeks away. Or should I say in about a month or so. BUT! After rotting at home for so so so SO MANY months.. I tak boleh tahan adi... MUST DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!! MUST STUDY! Plus, I'm so excited to learn ALL about nursing! :)... Weeee~ *jumps up&down!* Hehehehe...

I'm going to be like the smartiest smarty PANTS in coll. Yes, the kid that answers everything the teacher asks'... (as if.. xP)

And switch to NERD mode whenever theres exams and stuff... Lol...

Warning: The excitement for college is not permanent. xD

Submission

2010-05-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

The dictionary says that submission means "The act of submitting; the act of yielding to power or authority; surrender of the person and power to the control or government of another; obedience; compliance." Wow, its a lot of things all together. Today is my 7th day of fasting and prayer and I sensed God giving me the word "Submission". As what the dictionary explains, submission is obedience, surrender and submitting to the highest authority. To me, its God that I should submit to. I'm really not sure how to do ALL of those things together that equals to submission.

Its going to be quite tough though.. I could hardly obey Him at all times and now He wants me to submit to Him..? O.O.. I kinda wondered today... "Father, aren't You asking for too much? Ehehehe...".. But I found this scripture.. and it tells me why I should..

"Where do wars and fights come from among you? Do they not come from your desires for pleasure that war in your members?....... Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you" James 4:1,7

Thats why... And I know that, God isn't asking becoz He wants a lot from me. Its becoz He loves and cares for me. And He just want me to stay close to Him and becareful:).. Love You Lord:)..

*being submissive*

Me is STRONG!!

2010-05-13T23:58:00.000-07:00

YESHH!! I'm a STRONG WOMAN! xD... A friend of mine told me to be strong last night. Because, God can only use me mightily if I am. I definitely want to be strong. Not just physically la.. But mentally and spiritually for sure! I realized that, if I'm not strong. I can't accomplish a lot of things. Thus, time is wasted. 2nd day of fasting&prayer today. Being strong really spoke to me for sure. And asked the Lord to grant me the strength, courage, boldness, wisdom and focus in everything that I do.

I'm already 18. Okay, maybe not officially 18 yet. But going to be soon.xD.. I gotta take things like a big girl already. Of course I will probably cry and stuff. But I always know that He is my refuge, fortress and strength. I can always look to Him:).. The world is not going to end even if ONE bad thing happens. YEAH! BE STRONG!! *shows tough face* GGGRRRR.... xD

Yeah.. You better watch out cause those are some guns that I have there.. *kononnya* xP

"Imma whip you upside down if you ever DARE cross my LINE! "... Lol.. scary betul xD
OKays.. Gotta chao now! RAWR!! xD

"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

"Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them." Joshua 1:6

*being strong*

Autumn Leaves:)

2010-05-11T00:04:00.000-07:00

I remembered the 1st time I saw autumn leaves,(on TVxP)it was when I was a little girl. I don't know why, but autumn has always been one of my favourite seasons. Yes, before spring. Haha.. I've always been fascinated by the warm and calming colours of autumn and also the shape of its leaves. I know it sounds unusual but I like them a lot:).. Looking at the colours and the leaves just somehow calms me down. Me likey! :)

Isn't it warming and wonderful? =)

Ah yes... The beautiful autumn leaves...

Woi... Little gurl! Becareful to where you throw those leaves! Lol.. So random la.. xP...

Bring me to you, AUTUMN!! Weeee...~ ;)

The Path Where I Drive/Crash:P

2010-05-10T01:52:00.000-07:00

Driving lesson was really bad today. Got scolded a LOT by the uncle today. He almost wanted to hit me a few times. I know and can feel it. But nevermind. Its over now. While I was driving and getting scolded by the uncle I was praying a lot and asking peace from God. I realized that, life is not easy task at all(duh).. just like driving.. You tend to drive through a few holes, engine dying, and also a lot of other things here and there. But all in all, thats life.. The road ahead may seem so far and sometimes tough..

I might just crash & burn sometimes... and really hurt myself badly. :(

But I know that I can always talk to Him and count on Him.. :)

2010-05-09T06:51:00.000-07:00

BLESSED MOTHER'S TO YOU MUMMY!!!! :)... BIIIGGG HUGGGSSS & KISSSESS!!

2010-04-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

Its amazing! Usually, when ppl play this piece. Their dynamics and articulations are not STABLE at all. Since it is SUCH an EXTREMELY hard piece:P.. But she plays it REALLY WELL. In fact, she played it AMAZINGLY. Look at how her fingers moves. Its so natural! She displayed and interpreted it in her own style and own way. AMAZING *applause*.

This piece, is my ALL time favourite piece. It just sounds like a beautiful beginning to EVERYTHING. Its so refreshing, friendly and breath-takingly beautiful.. Ahhhh~ I can listen to this all DAY!!

Speaking of BOLDNESS?

2010-04-29T05:39:00.000-07:00

Read Acts chapter 4 just now. The thing that spoke to me most about it is, the strength and BOLDNESS that the Holy Spirit gave Peter&John to stand up to the rulers, elders and teachers of the law. When the rulers, elders and teachers of the law ban them from spreading the good news that Jesus is the Messiah and had died on the cross for us. It was because that they saw how God healed the crippled man through Peter, they felt threatened because they were the ones who wanted Jesus to be crucified. When the ppl going in and out of the temple saw what Peter&John did to the crippled man. Many saw and believed in the Lord.

Thats why the rulers, elders and teachers of the law felt threatened. Okay la, its very long for me to keep on typing "rulers, elders, and teachers of the law".. Lets sum all of them up in 1 nickname kay? I shall call them.. "Bad AhPeks".. Okay? Nice right? Hahah!xD.. So, when Bad AhPeks ask Peter&John to not spread the good news and warned them that if they do they will be punished, jailed, etc etc. But Peter&John replied"Judge for yourselves whether it is right in God's sight to obey you rather than God. For we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard."

What I'm trying to say here is that, a lot of us as Christians. We've heard, seen, smell and taste of God's realness and GLORY in our lives. But we dare not take that step of faith for Him to go share the good news(the gospel). Some of us don't even care at all. Its like, " save myself then can already la.."... But, this is NOT the love that God has given us. He has given us the love that SHOULD be spread all OVER THE WORLD! Let the Holy Spirit FILL you with BOLDNESS and STRENGTH TO GO and make a STAND for our Father in Heaven who loves us so much. We can do this! God did not give us the attitude of timidity but the attitude of going OUT THERE and the POWER TO CHANGE! Lets do this together and take the example of Peter&John.. Amen? :)

"He is the stone you builders rejected, which has become the capstone. Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved." Acts 4:11-12

2010-04-28T22:25:00.001-07:00

I WANT TO KILL MSN!!!! GGGRRRRRRRRRR

Needs and not Wants

2010-04-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

Did my devotion just now. Doing my devotion on the book of acts. Read Acts Chapter 3 just now. Used the BK book of Acts that Wai Yip borrowed me. I learned a lot there. But then, I didn't felt really FILLED by the word and the spirit and decided to reread it using my Bible. Read halfway until it talked about the crippled beggar that is being placed in front of the temple called Beautiful to beg for money and stuff, then I stopped and realized something.

When the crippled beggar was begging for money(to Peter& John). Peter looked at him and said.. "Look at me!" so the beggar looked, expecting money from them. Then Peter said.. "Money I do not have.. But what I have I give you. In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth.. WALK!".. So then the crippled beggar starting feeling a lot of strength on both of his legs.. And started walking.

You see, the beggar WANTED money to feed himself and things like that. But it was God who KNEW what the crippled beggar NEEDED. From God through Peter, the crippled beggar is HEALED! And you might ask, whats the use of his legs being healed again? The reasons are, No.1.. Isn't it good that he is able to walk like any normal human being already?.. No.2.. Since he is able to walk.. He can look for job.. No.3.. Since he can look for a job, it also means that he is able to feed himself everyday without begging for money. No.4.. He doesn't need to humiliate himself anymore by begging in front of the temple and being looked down upon by the public.

Isn't God awesome? Sometimes, we think that what we WANT is what we NEED. But very clearly, that God knows what we NEED. Our WANTS sometimes can be of evil intentions. Thats why sometimes we wonder. Why doesn't God give me this and that?? Have you ever thought that its because its not for you to own or to have at all/at this moment? Have you ever thought that what you want might harm you for the rest of you life/at this moment? I'm guessing that the answer is no right? Anyway, God knows what we NEED and therefore He gives us of what WE NEED instead of what we WANT. The WANTS and all those things will be persecuted by God to decide whether is it the right time or whether is it the right thing for us. But all in all, for sure God will give us what we NEED 1st. For sure we will be hardened, hurt and not satisfied because we do not get what we WANT. But FOCUS on what you NEED. Because, with the NEEDS that has been given to you by God can be used and will bring you to a LOOONNNGG WAY.

So yea, trust in the Lord for He knows what is BEST FOR YOU! =)

Hiding Place

2010-04-27T22:38:00.000-07:00

He is my Hiding Place. To shield me from the world that always wants to kill. To shield me from the tears and everything bad. He can be UR Hiding Place too:)

HE LOVES YOU=)

His Love that brings The "One"

2010-04-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

Was watching this Singaporean drama just now. This woman and her husband. Shes always worried that she'll look old and stuff (which she doesn't). She gets really jealous and scolds her husband like godzilla whenever her husband stares or accepts the flirt from another woman. As I was watching, I felt that partly it was really funny and partly I pity both parties for having to suffocate each other like that. HahaxD.. And then I thought and realized, I would never have problems like that in the future with my future husband. Because, the "One" in my life in the future.

Would be some1 who wouldn't let me worry abt all these things coz he is given to me from my Father in Heaven:) Whom He has chosen rightly for me and me for him =).. And then at the end of the drama. Theres this couple who hugged each other and embraced each other. I ALWAYS wanna know how it felt like to hug a man that I love. But I always know for a fact that some1 in my life have always been there hugging me through the bad and the good times:).. My Daddy in Heaven=).. When I was born as a baby, as a little girl, a woman and an old woman in the future. Until I go HOME. Hes always there to hold me tight.. And this thought made me tear.. :')

When I was a baby.. He held me close and loved me in every bit that I am.

Even when I was a little girl.. He held me at all times.

Even til' now or in the future.. I know that everytime I cry He is there to open His arms for me. His hugs, encouraging words & LOVE is all that I need to get through the day.
And 1 day, I know that He'll send the "one" into my life. But I know that He will never leave me or him. He will hug us both together in unity=).. Because of God's love. And my love to Him. I believe that I will be able to love the "one" in my life unconditionally and sincerely. As I love God more and put Him as no.1 in my life. I am able to give unconditional love to the ones around me and also to my future hubby=).. I love You Daddy.. And thank you for "him".. Even though I do not know who it will be right now. I AM THANKFUL for the THINGS TO COME! =)

"In the midst of all the ppl and the maze in the fields. I found you because God love us both that He brought us together =)"...

U GUYS HAVE TO WATCH THIS! =)

2010-04-26T21:50:00.000-07:00

This song really touched me. Especially the chorus where it sings "Majesty.. Majesty.. Your grace has found me just as I am.. Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.. We're singing Majesty.. Majesty.. Forever I am changed by Your love.. In the presence of Your Majesty.."

LETS JUST WORSHIP UNTO THE LORD :)

Missions Trip

2010-04-25T20:41:00.000-07:00

Been wanting to go to missions trip ever since last year when I went for APYAC. But, when WaiYip invited me to his church for this Missions conference. It impacted me and taught me more abt missions. God asked me.. "Where are you?".. My answer, (the same as WaiYip's) is whenever I want to obey and am ready:).. And, I realized that there are so many unreached groups of people. It just really impacted me to go forth and to FIND for God. So yea, bros and sis' in Christ. We have got to help God FIND and to SPREAD THE GOOD NEWS!!! :)

"For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have ETERNAL LIFE" John 3:16

Going to FIND. And it starts in our own HOME:)

D-I-S-T-R-A-C-T-I-O-N-S

2010-04-21T21:13:00.001-07:00

When you think of distractions. What comes to mind? Internet, parents'(not that their bad distractions:P), music, problems and etc. Anything can be a distraction just as long as it takes ur attention away from doing the important things. I think, the most distraction I've got is when I am doing my TAWG(Time Alone With God). A friend of mine told me that he had lack of dicipline during his TAWG, mostly because of the distractions around. And it made him felt empty inside. I think, a lot of us christians have this problem. And its really important to know how to avoid these distractions during our TAWG.

Before we do our TAWG. I think its really important that we pray against the evil one 1st. Because the evil one is capable of distracting and disturbing our TAWG. Hence, all these distractions come and we give into them. Pray for strength to have the consistency in our TAWG. And also pray for the strength to stand firm in His presence whenever distractions come. Then only you start ur TAWG. I am sure that even as God says that He hears our cry He will hear that important prayer before our TAWG as well:).. During TAWG, be sure to SURRENDER all that you are to Him. I believe that as your fully into Him and into His presence during TAWG, no distractions will come. Even if they do, you will be able to withstand them. Therefore, it gives the devil no power to disturb ur intimate time with the Lord at all. YEAH! VICTORY IS OURS!! :)

YEAHHH~ JUMP FOR VICTORY YO!! haha! xD.. So yea, just do whatever thats important. Most importantly, just enjoy ur TAWG!! :)

"20 For no one can ever be made right with God by doing what the law commands. The law simply shows us how sinful we are. 21 But now God has shown us a way to be made right with him without keeping the requirements of the law, as was promised in the writings of Moses and the prophets long ago." Romans 3:20-21

Cuppcakes, YUM!

2010-04-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

YEAH!! *clapclapclapclap* xD.. haha! I love cupcakes! They don't just taste yummy but the decos on them are so pretty! Mind you that although I love cupcakes. I only eat them once in a very long time. Too much sweetness isn't good for health and also for my teeth. Haha. Check these yummies OUT! :)

So cute! hahaxP

Nopes.. Its not chickens, eggs and stuff.. but its cupcakes! So nice.... *__*

Look! their so pretty that flowers even grow on them! *sarcasm* :P

Aaaahhh....~ *__*

ELMO is so famous that hes even on the cupcake!! *wanna eat some..* WAIT! How can I eat my Elmo?! *shakes myself*... xD

Elegant, simple and nice:)

Signing out NOW! XOXO

Random

2010-04-21T01:05:00.000-07:00

Mmmhmmm... *nods+speechless*

ELMO! :D

2010-04-21T00:46:00.000-07:00

Awwww.... I know you love me Elmo:) xD... Sorry la! Can't help myself! Ehehehe... Isn't he the cutest? Just to let you know a little secret of mine. Elmo used to be my childhood 1st love. NgehehehexD... He's just the most adorable little red monster. Who doesn't love Elmo? You tell me?? Haha.. Just to let you know.. Elmo is in his 30s right now and still loving the whole world. Haha!xD..

Yes.. Its true that Elmo has his own show call "Elmo's World". I'm sorry Elmo.. I love you but I'm not really a fan of your show:(.. But, my baby cousin sister does! :D.. So yea, you've got yourself some pretty cute fans over there.. Wait... *slaps meself* why am I talking to him while he doesn't exist?? Lol... Well, he used too when I was a little girl.. (in my dreams:P).. I SO WANT an Elmo plushy. The thing is, there ARE Elmo plushys everywhere. But, they cost quite a lot. Parents' don't wanna buy me 1 since I'm old enough now. But, I still want 1! :P.. So yea, friends out there.. B'day pressie pls??? Hahahah! xD.. Okay, gotta chao now.. Since Elmo said "Elmo loves you".. Heres someone very special in my life who would like to say something to ALL OF YOU! :)

YESSHH! JESUS LOVES YOU! *MORE THAN YOU KNOW:)

GET GREEN:)

2010-04-20T21:25:00.001-07:00

Yes, the cute little puppy there says it ALL! FIGHT DIRTY and GET GREEN! Stop littering around, and STOP making mother earth your DIRTY HOME. Lets take the initiative to make mother earth HEALTHIER and a BETTER PLACE FOR EVERYONE to live in!

Do you know that plastic is identified as the most common form of ocean litter? When plastic enters the marine food-chainit devastates marine life and even affect human when they consume seafood that have eaten plastic debris.

This is what we have ALL BEEN EATING! Ah ha! See that now?!

It even gives little girls tummyache..:(

And you start puking continously like Mr. Pumpkin over here does. (wanted to put real human puking pics, but wouldn't wanna ruin your appetite ;) )

SO, what do we do now?? START TAKING CARE OF MOTHER EARTH! GO GREEN! PEACE.OUT!

The Last Song

2010-04-19T20:31:00.000-07:00

The Last Song is a novel written by a famous novelist/author who also wrote "A Walk to Remember", "The Notebook", "Dear John" and now the latest "The Last Song". I have the BOOK!!! wahahahaha! xD.. One of the BEST novels that I've ever read in my whole life. Seriously! Its not just about love, kiss here kiss there. No, you won't really get much of that from Nicholas Sparks' books. It has a spiritually thing going on*thumbs up*, love, hope, trust, believe.. And for "The Last Song".. It talks about finding our way back HOME. Wow.. That alone sounds so awesome to me:).. Heres the cover of the book(with movie poster on it)

Yes, the lead actress is Miley Cyrus and the Australian hottie is Liam Hemsworth*drools* haha! xD..

This is actually the original cover and I LOVE IT! =)

This is LIAM HEMSWORTH! An Australian.. aahhhh~ Australia.. Land of Hotties.. hahaha! xD

Let me give you a short synopsis of the book. Seventeen-year-old Veronica 'Ronnie' Miller's life was turned upside-down when her parents divorced and her father moved from New York City to Tybee Island, Georgia. Three years later, she remains angry and alienated from her parents, especially her father ...until her mother decides it would be in everyone's best interest if she spent the summer on Tybee Island with him. Ronnie's father, a former concert pianist and teacher, is living a quiet life in the beach town, immersed in creating a work of art that will become the centerpiece of a local church. The tale that unfolds is an unforgettable story about love in its myriad forms - first love, the love between parents and children - that demonstrates, as only a Nicholas Sparks novel can, the many ways that deeply felt relationships can break our hearts ...and heal them.

Yup, thats practically about it. Itching to have the book?? I HAVE IT! And not borrowing it to any1!! Muahahahha! It cost a LOT kay?? So yea, sorry ppl! :P.. I was blessed to be able to buy it at a 20% discount (MPH warehouse sale that day).. Ehehhehe.. Original price cost about RM60++.. The book is thick. So even at RM60++ its all worth it:).. It made me cry kay? It even made my guy friend cry when I borrowed it to him(thats when I decided not to borrow it to any1 else anymore. Thanks to him!). So yea, its really an awesome book. Grab it ppl! :).. Thats all from me today!

~!CHAO!~**

180degrees

2010-04-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

LOL! I'm so so so so SORRY! for the lack of update ppl! Been lazy to update.. :P.. ANYWAY, just wanna do a little bit of sharing on my experience in NS. Don't listen to whatever that people say about it. Of course there will always be pros and cons in everything. But, what I've experienced there was more than... not enough sleep.. spicy food at ALL meals.. crazy and yet awesome trainers.. physically stressful things... I have to say that, I've grown so much there spiritually. I really praise God for sending me there and that I've obeyed Him instead of differing.

God sent awesome friends to be with me. One really inspiring fella to teach me more abt God:)).. And a sista who helped me grow closer to God in a way:).. You'd think that in less than 3 months time we wouldn't experience anything. Trust me, we've experienced more there than being out of NS for 1 whole year. I've experienced yet another heartbreak there. But quickly moved on with the grace of God as the person is never mine. Holy Spirit led me, worked in my heart and showed me whats called LUST and real&pure LOVE:).. Grew closer to God..

Brought a soul back to God:)(to God be the glory!) Went through a bit of an emotional and physical draining.. But all is GOOD. For the Lord is good and His love and mercy endures forever! Amen?? :).. So yea, that kinda sums up everything. If you want to see pics. Go to my fb profile. Coz theres more than hundreds of pic there, seriously!

Alright, back to the topic.. when it comes to 180 degree change.. whats the thing that comes to ur mind?? looks?? body size?? personality??Lol.. But mine, is definitely with the course that I am going to study..! ;) As most of you know, I am crazy about music and wanted to further my studies in it and make a career out of it (being a teacher and stuff). But, when I came back to NS.. God really changed me 180 degree celcius. Yes, I am going to take nursing. I know, shocked right? Yup, that made my parents' unable to sleep for 2 days.Especially my mum, she just couldn't accept the fact that I am going to be a nurse and not a music teacher or a musician.

I really do LOVE music. But, I just don't see myself doing it as a career for the rest of my life. Doing music is not as easy as what ppl think it is. U need more than just skills and brains. You need TALENT. Whether I have it or not now. Doesn't really matter anymore. God really touched my heart and gave me a passion for this career. My mum told me, during those sleepless nights.. God comforted her heart and spoke to her saying that this is the path that He has chosen for me. So yea, obeying it now:)...

Many relatives and friends were really shocked by this transformation. But, at the end.. They all were really sincerely happy for me.. Even more HAPPY now than before when I said that I was doing music. I guess, God really helped me work in their hearts as well. Coz, before this... When I told everybody abt it, their responses were really discouraging.. God really heard my cry.. And therefore, He took care of every1 for me. So now, going to Segi Kota Damansara to take up nursing on the 12th of june. And guess what? Its the ONLY course in Segi that is TOTALLY FULLY COVERED BY THE GOVERNMENT... which means, FULL LOAN!! PTL right?!! I know.. Even though I would have to pay them back by working in the future. At least, I don't need my parents' to work like a nut case right? Plus, I still have 2 younger brothers who are going to study soon. God is really FAITHFUL! Praise Him for His AWESOMENESS&FAITHFULNESS!! :)

HEY PPL!! JUST CAME BACK FROM NS!! WILL UPDATE SOON KAY?? STAY TUNE!! :)

2010-03-11T02:45:00.001-08:00

Goodbyes To Everyone and Everything

2010-01-01T19:45:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of me staying at home and stuff. Not that I am leaving forever.. *touch wood touch wood*. But as I said before, I am leaving for NS(National Service). Which I am picked and forced to go to. I am here to say my sorrowful/joyful goodbye(depending on how you want to look at it.. haha). Firstly, goodbyes to my family, friends, my husband(wooyoung), my hottie(hyun joong), my mp3 player, my cds, my piano, my violin, my house, my bed, my bolster, my radio, my fav korean bands, my fav korean drama, my fav tv shows, my computer, internet, rabbits, fishies, facebook, blog and everything else that I won't seeing again for 3 MONTHS!!!

I guess the people and things that I am going to miss the most are my family, friends and every gadget and thing that allows me to play/make or listen to music. Haihz.. my piano and violin...

Msgs:
Parent's: Mum and dad.. I know I didn't do 2009 well with all of my crappy results. And I know sometimes you both wish I could be more like my friends who get good results. But I really appreciate that you both understood that it is just not my thing. You've taught me well and raised me well enough to be able to take care of myself for these 3 months. You both mean the world to me. Even before my friends, music and everything else that is important to me. Because no1 else is as important as both of you.=).. Don't worry about me alright? I will be fine. HUGS AND KISSES!! :)

Brothers: Romeo and Rino.. I am telling you.. You guys are just the most annoying brothers in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!! But I also know that its because you just care abt me and also its your job as brothers to annoy me..*rolls eyes* I love both of you dearly and pls take care of mummy and daddy while I'm gone for 3 months kay? Take care of the cell and learn from Jason alright? Always rmb to seek God 1st in your lives and pray everytime you get lost on how to lead the cell. Romeo, I know your not too keen about the idea of leading the cell. But you will have fun. I know its a lot of work(thats what I used to think). But I am telling you, it is the BEST job that you can ever find in this whole wide world. You'll get what I mean soon;).. Stay strong kay? I love you!! Rino, your always the cutest and the blurest 1 that you always ended up getting scolded by mummy. Be more alert okay?? Don't wanna see you get scolded by mummy all the time. I know your always dependant on the Lord and you always try your best to listen and to do what He tells you to do. Teach Romeo to listen to God more and to spend time with Him more okay? You are way more smarter than what other ppl think you are. Don't listen to what others say as not everything is true. Ppl may sting you and hurt you with words but always know that in God's eyes and heart. You are one special kid and you are the best! I love you! :)

Friends: Without you guys, I would never have this much fun and without you guys, I don't think that life would be as fun and as interesting as it is. Each and every1 of you have a special place in my heart. I love you all!!! And you have no idea how fortunate I am to call you a friend. =).. We shall hang out after I come back kay?? Hehe.. Charisse, Yevanne, Mei Fong, Max, John New and every other buddies from church. You guys have been awesome!! Thank you so much for your support, comfort and prayers. I love you all so muccchhh!!!!! =).. Hugs hugs hugs!!! Muaaxx muaax muaxx!!

Piano and Violin: Piano, I know ur not a yamaha and kawai branded piano. But my parent's and I chose you for a reason. 1st, your price was quite cheap and reasonable.. xP.. 2nd, your sound is loud and clear compared to all the other yamaha and kawai that they have there. You ARE royality(since the brand name is royal.. =P). Sorry for releasing my grief on you when its my own fault that I am not patient enough. (nope.. I dont bang my piano!! ). 3rd, though your skin colour is ugly, ur still my baby..:) love you to death! Violin, though u only cost RM150 and you don't sound very good. Apparently you kill me with ur hard and low quality strings and you also kill my side jaw with ur low quality wood(its factory made la.. ). I still love you!! Coz without you, I am not able to learn violin and I am sorry for hurting you with my bad playing..=P.. Life would be so hard and boring without both of you ='(.. No worries, I'll come back and play both of you more kay?? LOVES!!!

Mp3 player: you've been my companion whenever I want to listen to quick music and also my companion when I am bored. I can't live without you for sure. (since I can't bring my piano and violin everywhere.. SIao ar..) You will be dearly missed=(

Cell members: You guys have been awesome and great!! Thank you for making me laugh so MUCH in cell. I will always remember all of you with your very own unique personalities. Haha..! xD.. You guys make it so hard for me to leave. When I come back, I'll lecture you one by one! Hahaha... Jkjkjk.. I'm going to miss youuuuuu!!!!!! T.T.. Pls be good and always always spend time with the Lord and grow stronger and bigger in Him okay? When I come back, I wanna see some spiritual changes alright?? Listen to Jason, Romeo and Rino yea?? I looooveeeee youuuu alllll!!!!!! XOXOXO!!!

Okay la.. I don't need to give msgs to everything la.. haha!! I know you guys think that I am going too far with this post. But it is just me. If you know me well enough, I am that type of person who can be super duper deep and sensitive at times. You really don't wanna get into my mind when I become emo. Seriously.. haha! But honestly, this is just the last thing I wanna do before I leave to NS. Just to leave something for you all to remember me with=) I know many of you may ask where is the place and stuff. Let me tell you, its in Bidor, Perak and I will be leaving tmw (Sunday). I have to be at the gathering place (Park & Ride, in front of Sek Alam Shah, Putrajaya) by 8.30am.

I'll see you all in 3 months time!! Loves and Hugs!! :)...

P.S- Max.. rmb to belanja me carls jr kay?? Hahahahaha!! xD

Kissing You Goodbye ='(

2009-12-27T20:19:00.000-08:00

Charisse, we've known each other for about 3 years already. We've been besties ever since. You were my mentor, sister, bestie, leader, hunnay and everything else. I love you to death!! Having to let you go and send you off to Boston was one of the toughest thing I had to do so far this year. Seeing you cry when you saw the banner that Jenn Ming made and our signatures on it really tore me apart. It really worries me about whether are you going to be lonely on the plane.. whether your going to cry somemore or not... how are you going to do over there and etc etc.

And it just reminded me of HOW much I am going to miss you. *sobbing*.. When you come back during may, we are going to hang out!! and have sleepovers!! okay okay?? Pls take good care of yourself kay hun?? Rock for Him over there and inspire the ppl around you like how you did over here. God has definitely blessed you in ur life and has definitely shown you favor.. Continue to rise for Him with the gift that He has bestowed upon you.

I love you hunnayyy!!! And I will miss you dearly!! =(...

P.S- Waiting til' the day you come back..=)

3 MONTHS!!

2009-12-25T06:31:00.001-08:00

I think you all know what I am going to talk about already judging by the tittle of the post. I am going to NS on the 3rd of jan which is next sunday. And to be honest, I am really really REALLY not ready to go! I know I know.. Everybody say 3 months only ma.. So what? I don't care whether you've been there before or not but its just that 3 months for me is quite long you know. I have to leave my family and friends for 3 months?! What nonsense is this wei? I didn't choose to go to this crappy NS thing u know?

I'll totally be missing out a lot of things. Like, Music Bank, SGB, updates on my fav korean bands, church(GlaD Tidings), music, piano, violin. There are SO many things that I can do. And I have to leave it all behind just because of NS. I have been emo-ing about this since before SPM. But it just suddenly struck me again today. And its CHRISTMAS!!! Gosh.. I am really really not happy. Sometimes I just really wonder whats going to happen there. I seriously can't live without my mp3 for 1 day you know. And I am left without it for 3 months?!!! Lord, SAVE ME!! T.T...

I really feel so let down thinking about it sometimes. But, I definitely know that 3 months will pass really fast. And I'll be reunited with my family, friends, piano, violin, mp3 player, church, and lots of korean boy band stuff!! (muahahaha). I guess I just have to keep on being positive about it and just have fun. I believe that even as the Lord had path my way for me. Whether bad or good things happen. He will always be there to take care of me as long as I partake in it.

No matter what happens, I am going to stay strong and look forward to the day when I can go HOME.

P.S- MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =)

APYAC 2009!!

2009-12-18T21:30:00.000-08:00

APYAC (Asia Pacific Youth Alive Conference) 2009!! It was just an amazing and awesome conference!! God really moved every country and everyone during this conference! It was just so overwhelming that I really could not find the right words to say. There were China, Korea, Japan, Cambodia, Philipine, Africa, Myanmar, Singapore, Indonesia and many more countries represented there! It all consist of young ppl like you and I hungry to see the change in our country and hungry for God to move in our country and in Our Lives!

In the next 3 years when APYAC is back again. I am definitely signing up for it! =).. Btw, did I mention that the ministers from America and UK came too? Haha.. xD Here are some pics during APYAC.

Me, Aaron and Crystal.

Aaron and I Take 1

Aaron and I take 2!

Aaron, Audrey and I =)

Xeen Huii, Aaron, Audrey and I

The last day of APYAC was when Pastor Julie asked one youth in every country to represent

their own country.

MALAYSIA!! =)

The Cross that Jesus had died for our sins.

The countries represented there. The flags I mean. Haha.

Taking up our cross and walking with Jesus. Its not light okay. Its HEAVY!!

The young ppl who represented their own country and walking with the cross. I think that this is really a meaningful thing. It really means that us taking the responsibility that God has given us to help the young ppl of our country to realize the living truth. I cried so much that time. Gosh..

NIGHT WORSHIP WITH GT TEAM!! WOhoooo!!! My own church's worship team le. Of course must cheer more!! Haha..

They were rocking it for God that night!!

John playing the electric guitar.. awesome!!

The pics that I am most proud of... (hahahaha!!) The team that ministered through their music that played for the conference. Team America!! The guy on UR left is Tim Gugudan(electric guitarist, he rocks man!), the one next to me (absolute cutie) is Rob Morgan(bassist, he is awesome!), the next to Rob is Aaron Johnson(drummer, he is GOOD!). Btw, they were playing for this husband and wife from America. Their names are Brad and Rebekah.

Don't they both look good 2gether? Haha.. their songs are awesome too! Its really simple and honest lyrics. The best part is that it really ministers me to God. Definitely worth the buy. =)

Anyway, there are actually more pics and more things to say. But, I am not really feeling well and a little bit too lazy to upload everything. haha!! Sorry yea. Hope you guys enjoy looking at pics and catched a glimpse of what APYAC is about. I would have to say this, after APYAC. God really gave me a heart for the nations and for my own country. I will definitely help Him with this. Love You Lord! And thank You for opening my eyes to so many things that many of us are not able to see and understand.

Checkin' out now. Bye!!

2009-12-16T05:16:00.000-08:00

WIsh I can play for church one day. I believe I will. And I know I can!! But first, need to smoothen the rough edges around. If not, everybody will pengsan.. Haha.. No seriously. Haha

I LOVE YOU

2009-12-16T01:46:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 10am yesterday because I wasn't feeling that well. Christopher came to write/make/compose the song with me for Christmas@Home. Chris wanted to do the tunes for the song and he wants me to do the writing. But we ended up doing both. He did more of the tunes since he has the guitar on his hand and I did more of the writing since it is my song and my story.

We started at 11am-12++pm. Nope, we didn't finish the song at that time. We stopped because we got stuck after writing the verse. So then, we took a break. Which lasted for 3 hours? Hahaha. I took a nap since I was not feeling well. Piano teacher came at 3.30pm until 5pm. Then we continued again at 5pm-6.30pm. No we're not pros. Yes, though we finished the song in about 4 hours plus that doesn't make us pros right? The reason why is because we're running out of time and the event is this friday. We didn't want to make more adjustments here and there because we're afraid that we will spoil the song even more. Lol.

To give you my most honest opinion, I don't think that the song is good. But since it is my first song, I guess I am kind of proud of it. Did record the song down just in case we forgot how it sounds like. Not being to post it yet because the sound quality of my Camera is B.A.D. So yea, will look for someone who has a good camera with a good sound quality soon. No worries, I promise I will upload it here. In the mean time, here are some pics of the procedure on writing the song call. I LOVE YOU.

Here is chris strumming on the guitar trying to figure out the chords on the tune I gave him.

Me trying to figure out the tunes on the piano.

I know the pics is not clear. Sorry about that. In case you are wondering what those are. Those are the chords and lyrics that we wrote down for the song.

Wondering where is Chris? I have no idea.. o.O

THERE!! He is BACK! I think we were arranging and adjusting a few things here and there.

Chris and I got a headache when we got stuck on what to do.

Anyway, this is about it. Wonder who is the photographer? My brother, Rino. Haha! Btw, here is the lyrics and chords for the song. You can try playing it with ur guitar, piano or whatever instrument that you play.

I LOVE YOU

Written by: Emelia Cheng & Christopher Chan, Produced by: Christopher Chan & Emelia Cheng

Intro

E B C#m A (2X)

Verse

The day You found me Lord

I was lost and blinded

C#m A

When my spirit's hiding

C#m B
In the darkness..

Where theres no place to go

Struggling and falling

C#m B

To the place where theres no way out

Chorus

You save me Lord

C#m

You took me in

When everybody sees me

As a nobody

E C#m

You clothe me with Your love and mercy

And You said

B A

Just know I love You

Bridge

A B

But You never gave up

C#m B

On me

A B

And You never left me

C#m B

Alone

Basically, this song is about when I was in my down times. Though I did not really believe in Him and I did not accept Him as my Saviour. He still came for me and He told me He love me. It touched my heart and I believe Him and has accepted Him as Lord and Saviour now.

Will try to post the song soon. Pls wait kay? Thanks guys.. Hope you like the lyrics to the song. LoveS!

P.S- Will update about APYAC(Asia Pasific Youth Alive Conference) SOON!!

JANG WOOYOUNG <3

2009-12-07T01:51:00.001-08:00

As I am such a fan of this Korean boy band call 2PM. I definitely love 1 of the guy in it. His name is Jang Wooyoung. And he is officially my current hubby!!! xD.. Yes we ARE married..*as if*..
I know he is not the oh so "handsome" guy. But he is definitely cute and he has a unique touch on his look. I don't know why. But I am always drawn to guys who looks unique in a way. Like his eyes, smile, laugh or something like that. I mean, I like handsome guys too. But its like after seeing that face for a million times. U'll be like.."hmmm.. why does it feel like I've seen that face everywhere before". Get what I mean? No offence yea. Its just me okay? Anyway, Wooyoung is 20 years old. And I just LOVE him to bits! He has a witty/cute smile, a mischievous, caring, kind, sensitive, talented, hard working and serious attitude. Serious as in, he is serious about the things/ppl he love. Did I mention that he can clean and cook too?? GOSH!! He is so AWESOME!!

Lately, he has been in a bad mood. Because his beloved leader Park Jaebum left the group(check out my "2PM's New Album without Jaebum"Post). To be honest, I am not very fond of that "being too overtly negative attitude" of his. As in, I know the leader is gone 'for now'( I emphasize on the for now because word is that he is coming back soon. And he has a contract to fulfill). But try to cheer up a bit for the rest of the members and the fans man. Cause the rest of the members are going through the same thing as you are and you know it!
But nvm, I used to be like that too. And still are sometimes.

I would definitely want my future husband to be like Wooyoung. But of course there are a few things that is needs to be added. No.1 He needs to be a Christian. No.2 He needs to be a man who puts God 1st in his life. No.3 He needs to put God 1st in our relationship. No.4 He needs to be able to stay positive even in really bad situations. No.5 He needs to be an awesome boyfriend and a future father. No.6 He need not be afraid of commitment. No. 7 He has to love and accept me for who I am. No.8 He needs to be serving God in ANY area in the church. E.g. Be it cell leader, worship leader, singer or whatever it is. No. 9 He needs to be loyal and faithful to me. No. 10 He needs to be funny and being able to be romantic just like Wooyoung. HAHAHA!

I guess thats about it gua. Hehe.. Got a lot right? Haha! But no worries, I believe in God. And I believe that my future hubby is just like what I wished for. And I will be just like what he wished for :)
Btw, here are some pics of wooyoung. Enjoy them as I do! Hahaha!

Pouty wooyoung..

His smile is just.. Gosh... I donno what to say.

Hahaha!! So cute..=)

Recently, this is his new haircut. For the recent album of course. (check out my "2pm's new album without jaebum" post and you'll know why they are doing this dead goth look) If you actually take away the dark eye make up and put a smile on his face. It will look very good=).. I still love my wooyoungie no matter what. HAHA! xD

Anyway, this is about it. Will update more soon! Loves=)

LAST PAPER DONE!!!! WEEEE!!!!

2009-12-07T01:47:00.000-08:00

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!! SPM IS OVER BABY!!! I just really really want to dedicate this post to God and my friends and family who have supported all the way through!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO DARN MUCH!!! No WORDS can describe how I feel now. I feel so set FREE!!! Going for outings soon! Yeah!!

WEEK 3 DONE!!

2009-12-01T22:16:00.000-08:00

What up peeps! Lol..! Anyway, I've finished week 3 and now waiting for THE LAST PAPER!! Okay.. Enough of being nuts.. Heres the updates on the papers. Had Accounts on Tuesday. Paper 1 was at 8-915am while paper 2 was at 10-12.30pm. Paper 1 was okay as it is just circling answers. If I don't know the answer, I can just tembak. Haha..! Paper was tough as usual. My document was not "Imbang". And they were about 2 questions which I seriously have no idea what to do..=(..

Today, I had science.. It was the same time as Accounts yesterday. But science was A WHOLE LOT EASIER! Even though paper 2 was a bit tough because there were some unexpected questions. Overall, week 3 was better than week 2. But seriously, how can SPM be good?? Lol.. Anyway, gotta log off now. Ekons is on next monday! Pray for me yea.. Loves:)

SPM 1st Week & This Week

2009-11-25T05:31:00.000-08:00

Last week, had BM, BI and SEJ. SEJ was awful!!!!!! Not only I can't rmb what to write. But I had panic attacks!! Gosh... How much can a human being take??! I don't think that I am able to pass for SEJ.. God.. SAVE ME!! Anyway, BM and BI was good. Especially BI, its a piece of cake. Okay, maybe I shouldn't take it that lightly. But it is definitely way more easier than BM and SEJ.

This week was Maths, Moral and Add Maths!! I was so worried about Maths becoz I have never been good in Maths. I really worked hard doing exercises and stuff. One day before the exam. I already had doubts that I couldn't do it. But God sent an angel and she gave me a call(yess... I'm talking about you hun=)) God heard my cry and He lifted me up! While doing the paper, even though I don't know how to do quite a lot of questions. I tried my best and stuck through it like a champ!! Praise the Lord Amen??!

Moral was terrible too. I memorized the nilais SO DARN FREAKING HARD!! Few more hours before the exam. I PANICKED! When I opened the exam paper. I totally forgot the definisis'... -.-"... Just.Great. Add Maths was even worse today!!! I had major headaches after I finish paper 2!!.. But thank God.. That it is over now..!! 3 more papers to GO!!

I just want to share with you all that, no matter what happens, how BIG you think your struggles are.. Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE for God!! He will deliver you from whatever that You are going through right now. Though I had panic attacks and stuff. He still calmed me down at the end. And He lets me know that He is with me all the time=)...

GIVE THANKS TO THE LORD PPL!! =]

Cell Group Yesterday! =D

2009-11-13T20:43:00.000-08:00

Had cell yesterday like every friday.. Yesterday was just really awesome like everyday friday is. Even though we're not the perfect cell group with over 20++ members like other cells do. But we are all special in our very own ways Amen? I mean come on.. I am more proud of my cell than ever. My members are great(even though they make me wanna kill them sometimes). And we all support each other... We makan supper together every friday night.. We talk, we chat about things.. We share more about God,about life..

We're just like a BIG family from diff sets of parents. Thats right.. We are brothers and sisters in Christ..!! Amen! hahaha...=D... We pray for each other in times of need, care for each other, lecture one another (actually, its only me.. hahaha!! XD). Though at times we may not be happy about the cell. But we stuck through it and we did it together..!! Yesterday in cell, my brothers did word.. And I couldn't be more proud of them(even though we're kind of lost on what they were talking aboutXP).

While typing this post I could honestly tell you that I am crying. Being a cell leader for almost two years.. Really made a change in my life. I grew a lot.. Learned so much about life and God.. About His love for me and His children.. I learned how to be more patient with others as everyone is not perfect. I learned to give others a second chance. I really definitely learned a lot. And I learned and grew a genuine sisterly love towards all my cell members who are not even in the same blood line as me.

Thinking about leaving cell soon and going to NS really makes my heart ache. I really want to be with them at all times and really want to continue serving Him. But unfortunately, I have to go to NS. So I guess I'll be serving Him over there to share the word of this Miracle giving God.

Msg to Members:
Hey DaRLings!! =).. I know I am going to leave soon.. And you won't be seeing me for 3 months next year.. But always know that each and everyone of you have a special place in my heart. And I am going to miss all of you a lot~! You all better be good and listen to Romeo and Rino kay?? Love you all so muchie! Rmb yea.. when I come back.. I want to see all of you having a slight change in ur life and spiritual life kay?? I belive you all can do it!! Amen?? For the one more month that we are going to spend together.. Lets make it the best month ever la kay? (we'll continue it again after I come back from NS kay?? hehehe) I LOVE YOU ALL!! HUUGGSSS!!! =)

2009-11-13T00:13:00.000-08:00

HAVING CELL TONIGHT!! ME VERY EXCITED!! XD... GOD BLESS EVERY1!!! I'LL VE PRAYING FOR EVERY1 WHO ARE TAKING SPM!! LOVES!!

P.S: God knows ur struggles.. Commit it to HIM! =)

2pm 1:59pm album without Leader Jaebum=(

2009-11-12T23:36:00.000-08:00

Okay, I only have 20 more mins to finish this post until I go back to studying.. AGAIN!! Anyway, one of my favourite korean boyband are having some probs lately. No.1 their beloved leader (Jaebum) left the group about 3months ago because some nosy fan found his my space and in his myspace he wrote"koreans are gay" and bla bla bla.. It was 3 or 4 years ago when he wrote that! He was just a teenager back then. Being American born and having to move to another country, learning how to get used to it, learning how to speak korean while u can only speak english is just tough man.

I don't know what happened to him back then that made him said that but it must have been hard for him and he was alone in korea at that time. But anyway, he apologized for it publicly and yet, korean fans just wouldn't let it go. So instead of troubling his band mates, he decided to leave. But news are are saying that he'll be coming back soon after all the petitions that the fans had signed or made and the "fans" from korea begged him to come back -.-"...

He would either not or will come back. Which I definitely hope he will. Cause 2pm is just not the same without him. As you all have seen on my post tittle 2pm has released their 1st full length album call "1:59pm". I guess any human being with common sense will know why the album is call 1:59 pm right? I'll just make it clear for u guys anyway. Its because without jaebum, its just not complete and they will never be 2pm.

The whole album is mainly about their struggles now trying to stick together as a group without their leader and having to learn that he is leaving and stuff. And having to deal with the fans in korea who just WON'T STOP bugging them about their leader's departure. I mean, they are the reason for why he left anyway. I think that jaebum has really learned his lesson. At the end of the day he apologized and yet ppl just won't give him a break. Until they drove him away =.=".. This album is definitely emo and dark. Even their looks now are emo.. Gosh.. I really kesian the boys. Even though the songs are emo. The whole album is quite good=).. As in the style of the music and stuff.. Even though 2 or 3 songs are with the same chords over and over again..-.-".. But overall its a good album and they really showed their emotions in it. As in, you can really feel their anger and frustation. Thats all it takes to make a good album=)...

From left, Chan sung, Junsu, Wooyoung(my hubby), Jaebum(my hubby), Junho, Nichkhun, Taecyeon(also, my hubby XD)...

Here is 2pm when jaebum was still with them.. One of the pic have taecyeon missing.. Which I don't know why.. haha!

This is the Cover of their new album!!

This is a video of their song "Heartbeat" its a really cool song. Even though the lyrics are stating "she".. But like I said, its actually mainly for and about Jaebum. Okay, I have to really say that I am not really a fan of this video. In a way its quite creative. But its still very... errr... I just don't know how to put it.. I just really didn't like the snake part and the dance moves in the beginning of the song.. But this video really showed our human heart when its in pain and stuff.. You can feel it but they pictured it for us. I definitely hope that they will find success in this album even without their leader Jaebum. Cause a musician being criticized and not getting good reviews of their work.. Is just suicide. But if I'm right, this album will definitely be a big hit.. Anyway, enjoy the video anyways! Gtg now.. Byebye!!

P.S: God told me once to give the people around me a 2nd chance like He always does.. Will you do the same?

SHINee 3rd mini album "2009 Year Of Us"

2009-10-20T03:34:00.000-07:00

Yes ppl.. SHINee is already out with their 3rd album! The album name is "2009 Year Of Us". So brave of them to name their new album like that. Oh well, I like that confidence. Haha. Their new single call "Ring Ding Dong" has been released on monday on the 19th of oct. To me, the song is about bad boys liking a girl and trying to charm her with their tough looks and stuff. But their actually pretty fragile and gentle and all they want is her. That sort of stuff. The song is really awesome and I do believe that 2009 is going to be their year.

Man, these boys just won't stop going. I mean, they just debuted last year with their 1st album. And just early this year they debuted their 2nd mini album call "Romeo". And now with their 3rd mini album call "2009 Year Of Us". I mean, don't they need to rest?.. No wonder their so freakishly thin! SM Entertainment seriously need to give them a break la.. Usually artist' debut only 1 album every year. But in their case... I am speechless..

Oh well, at least they don't have to make their fans miss them like crazy. haha!! Here are some pics of their new looks. They were going for the bad boy type of look. More darker I suppose..

Jonghyun(19)- He really looks good with blonde hair you know.

Key(18)- He looks so much better now than with the blonde hair!

Taemin(only 16!!)- Forever the maknae(youngest) of the group=)..

Minho- Irynna's man XD

And last but not least, My ondubu!! hehehehe... XP

Onew(20, leader of the group)- Gosh, hes just so cute! Totally love his new look!! So darn handsome wei.. *drooling*...

Alright, I am going to slap myself and go back to reality. So anyway, here is a video of their new single call "Ring Ding Dong". Hope you guys like it:)

Ring ding dong! Ohhh... I would love to be your miracle onew.. Ehehehe...*in my dreams*

Bye Everybody! Loves & Hugs!

Taekwando Perf!

2009-10-03T03:38:00.002-07:00

This year is definitely my last year in school. So, I've just decided to help out for the Taekwando performance since I'm in the club. The peformance was quite short but I believe that our performance was better than Karate. Wahahaha!! The bad thing was, the song that they used was the same with one of the songs we used! Then of course, there were jealousy and stuff la.. they were kind of not happy and said that they wanna redo their performance.. -.-".. Nonsensenya..

The best scene in our performance was when Irynna SLAPPED TERENCE!!
No.. the monkey is not Irynna.. But she does act like one. hahahaha!! I mean, a very cute monkey.. They were demonstrating the steps to self defense. It was just suppose to be pretend "slap". I guess Irynna was a bit too stressed until she really gave Terence a BIG SLAP! It sounded like some1 banged on the table really loudly. Yeah, it was THAT loud.. haha!

When I saw her slapping him.. My eyes grew BIG!! O.O... But like I said it was the best perf of all!! haha! I wished some1 would have had recorded that scene.. Ehehehe.. Anyway, heres a song by Baek Ji Young and my cutie Taecyeon. The song is call "My Ear's Candy". I love it! Thats because my cutie's perf in the video was awesome!! hahaha!!! Enjoy the song and the video guys!!

Saranghae(saranghae), I love you(i love you), wo ai ni(wo ai ni), te quiero(te quiero).....~

Small or BIG

2009-09-22T20:34:00.000-07:00

Went to have lunch with my family in this restaurant yesterday. Its call 100% Restaurant, near puchong of course(its where I live). While I was ordering food with my mum. I was not watching where I was going. I mean, which human being would look down on the floor and watch how they walk and stuff like that right?

I didn't bump into anyone. But when I look at the floor because I was bored of my mum ordering things so slowly. I saw this aunty looking at me. Nope, shes not a mid-aged woman but an old woman. And nope shes not fat or anything. But she is very small, and when I say small I mean very small. Shes a dwarf.

She looked at me and smiled. And then I smiled back. I then I was thinking before I fell asleep. Whether you are BIG or small, we are still humans and we need to treat each other equally!! Think about it guys. The small does not need to think big in order to feel or look big. And the big does not need to think bigger in order to feel or look greater. (it just makes you look dumb).

We are all creations of God. Whatever we are, we are still the same. =)

Falter..

2009-09-14T05:03:00.000-07:00

God.. I really don't know what to do.. Theres too many negative things and I am so afraid to proceed. I don't want my parent's to get disappointed. How can I make this dream of mine come true when I am always scared? I am so uncertain about my future Lord. Lead me and Guide me..

My B'day!! =)

2009-09-08T22:43:00.000-07:00

On the 7th of September 1992. A baby girl was born at 11pm++ by caesarean section. And they named her Emelia Cheng Voon Hooi. Hahahaha!! Lol.. Yes, monday was my birthday guys. Thank you so much for all the personal wishes and wishes on my facebook wall. It really made my day. Thank you all so much=). And thanks to mummy, daddy, carr ine and karen for buying me presents. Mummy and daddy bought me a watch(which i desperately need since my previous one is still being fixed), carr ine and karen(my darlings) bought a packet of Famous Amos cookies and a Cadburry chocolate bar(the big 1). Those gifts meant a lot to me and I really appreciate them lots! =)

But I also have a few wishes of my own. Check em out!

I want a baby grand piano(who doesn't?)

An expensive new violin! (expensive one's have a great sound quality ma..)

SHINee's new Romeo album!! (get me 1 ppl! XP)

2pm's Time For Change album..

PlanetShakers Free album (their songs are awesome!!)

Hillsong United's newest and latest album, TEAR DOWN THE WALLS!! (Hillsong Rocks!!)

Last but not least... To be Mrs. Onew!! (oh! my husband! XD)

Guess what?? Those aren't really the things that I wished for when I was blowing the cake. I wished for things that have nothing to do with albums, Onew and stuff. You'll have to guess to find out. I won't tell.. SHHHHhhhhhhhHHHH...*winks* =P

Girls Generation & 2pm

2009-09-04T20:39:00.000-07:00

Hey Peeps! =) Sorry for being on hiatus for so long. Was being very lazy as usual. But I am kind of having my trials now. So you get my point right? HAHA.. Anyway, theres a girl band and a boy band from korea that I discovered about 2 months ago. Okay maybe 'discovered' is a bit too big. Erm, how abt introduced? Yeah, thats sounds a lot more better. Hehe. Okay, anyway its abt Girls Generation and 2pm. Girls Generation is quite old already. I think the band has probably been on hiatus for 2 years or more(not very sure). But they came back with their latest album and their latest hit call "Tell Me Your Wish(Genie)". The song is really good, I got so addicted to it after listening to it of course.

The group consist of 9 pretty girls. Whether you think their pretty or not. You shall see later. Now about 2pm. This is a new boyband which I think was formed almost as the same year as SHINee(last year). Their newest album call Time for Change is a hit and their newest song call 'Again and Again' is even better as it hit 2million++ of viewers(its kpop la..2million is seriously good adi.. since not many ppl listen to kpop). Without further or do, here are some pics..

My Favourite would definitely have to be Seohyun, the riggghhhtt on ur left(corner left) at the 1st line 2nd row. Hehe.. She is so cute!

Okay, from left. Chan Sung, Junsu, Wooyoung(my fav), Jaebeom(leader), Junho, Nickhun, Taecyeon(my fav too =) )

So thats all for now, will update more soon guys! heres 2 videos from both the bands. Enjoy! =)

Shinee! ;)

2009-07-03T22:56:00.001-07:00

I'm currently listening to this Korean Boy Band name 'Shinee'. Its pronounced as the english word Shiny.. Not Shi-ne..(thats how I pronounced it at 1st..=P). Anyway, this group consist of 5 boys. And they are really young! Okay la.. Maybe not that young but at least they are below 21 years old.. Haha! They started at the year of 2008 and have dominated the KPOP world since then. Well, without further or do. Let me introduce you to these talented, cute, handsome and awesome young men!! XD

!!!!! Shinee!!!

From Left- Onew (Leader & 20), Taemin(16), JongHyun(19), Minho(18), Key(19)

And my favourite of all the boys is of course....... ONEW!!!! Weee~

That Big smile on his face just says it all *eyes shining*.. *_*

OH!! I like Key as well.. He has that unique look that I like.. =D

Heres an mv of their song A.M.I.G.O.. Hope you like it! Enjoy PeePS~!

P.S: Its one of my favourite songs from them too.. :)

PLKN

2009-07-02T00:37:00.000-07:00

Every form 5 is talking abt this NS(National Service) thing. I wonder why is it call National Service since I didn't want to volunteer myself in. Anyway, I got selected to go for next year's NS. I really really really don't want to go. But since I got selected. I might as well just go right? I just really pray for good roomies, a camp near kl, clean room and environment, no night activities where they put you in the jungle for hours or days and no snakes or wild animals crawling around the camp or my room!!! HAHA!!

My main reasons for not wanting to go is becoz I don't want to leave home for 3 months and I don't want to NOT be able to play my piano for 3 MONTHS!!! Maybe leaving home for 3 months isn't so bad (if the place is clean and good =P). But leaving my piano for 3 MONTHS!! Your just sending me to my grave man. I cannot not play the piano for 3 months!! All the hard work and dedication for so long. And then I leave it for 3 months.. My fingers are going to freeze!! T.T..

I DON'T WANT... *crys like a baby*

Lord, DELIVER ME FROM THIS BURDEN...!!!

2009-06-26T20:19:00.000-07:00

MADE 2 LOVE CONCERT!!!!!!!!!! WoohhooooOOOO!!!! Okay, readers I'm just so extremely sorry for not intoducing this concert in my blog. Becoz during those days, I was just too busy doing a lot of things that I have no time for my blog. No no, I'm not being lazy. I really WAS busy. Okay anyway, Made 2 Love concert was yesterday. And guess what? It was awesome! Not becoz I was the sound engineer or something. But becoz it really was awesome! I mean, the worship team was awesome! The singers, musicians, choir team and my own av crew. Was AWESOME!! And the one and only who is most AWESOME of all. Is no other than my Abba in Heaven =).. Man, He really helped us rock the hse yesterday night. The whole Maranatha hall was filled.

And guess what? His spirit filled the entire place last night. It was just so amazing of how ppl who don't even know, knew Him y'day through this concert. And many who didn't know of His love, knew His love y'day and today and forever more. And the best part was, lots and lots of souls were saved y'day!! Woohhoooo!!!!! To God be the glory.. Amen?! Those of you who didn't go. It was your lost la. But nvm, its okay its okay. We will see you next year in the year of 2010 for another amazing concert. Wooho0ooo!!! Okay, here is the theme song of the concert and also a video of the theme who has really worked hard on this concert.. Enjoys! =)

Here is the video of us all during the practices!! =)

CL Retreat

2009-06-08T20:23:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!! I'm back from my cell leaders retreat since last saturday.. HAHAHA!! XD.. It was in PD and I stayed in Ancasa Resort. To be honest, it wasn't really that fun. Because I didn't get to go on the banana boat and I didn't get to swim. Wanna know why? Because I was down with the flu-s on the 1st night itself. So sad right?

Anyway, the fun part was I get to know so many things about how to be an efficient leader and to be a good leader and ambassador of Christ. I really like these 2 things that Rev. Naomi Dowdy said... The 1st was "be an extra mile person" and "a believer a leader". Before this camp, I was not an extra mile person. But now I think I am. Being an extra mile person means doing something beyond my limitations and going deeper and further with God in the spiritual realm. It doesn't mean that when you become an extra mile person you must be a pastor. Please tell yourself..'WRONG THINKING'.. (these 2 words are adapted from Rev. Naomi Dowdy) haha! It just means that you are growing even more spiritually stronger and deeper with God.

And when she said a believer a leader. I definitely agree on that! To all my cellies and to all the christians who are reading this post. It does not matter whether you have the tittle or not. Because whether you like it or not. As long as you are God's child. You ARE a leader. You just have to show it and activate it. I believe you all can. Trust in yourself alright?? =)

Yes, and there ARE some pics.. actually theres a lot you know.. haha!! Check them out!

Mei Fong's sunslik hair..

Their Balinese Pose no.1

Their Balinese pose no.2

Mei Fong and I going crazy...

'I BELIEVE I CAN FLY' yes Mei Fong.. You can fly..

Back pose no.1

Back pose no.2

Back pose no.3

I like this pic.. Its so nice...

Haha! A random shot of Amelia and Michelle

Wa.. Such nice slippers.. Wonder who are the owners?? =P

An awesome group of leaders! (sorry, can't name all of them)

Me, Sandra & Charisse

My Hunay & I =)

Mei Fong & Charisse

And you know what?? I actually found a mermaid in PD you know.. No no.. I'm serious... CHeCK it OUT!!

TA-DAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! This is Leroy.. One of the leaders in my church..

From the girls from the left, Mei Fong, Ven Hui, Angeline, Charisse & Me. Guys from the left, Jefferey, Irwin & Isaac.

Hunay!! <3

Amelia!!

Nice leh? Ehehehehe...

From the left, Amelia, Wee Nee & Ven Hui

And this is my FAVOURITE PIC!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! XD.. Can you see the small little leaf on my hand?? hahha..!!

Anyway, thats it for now.. See ya'll.. Bye!!

Its Been Long

2009-05-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

It has been long ever since I was intune with music. Exams are over. During exams, it was really hard for me to practice the piano as I was really focused on studying. And, I've not been listening to classical for quite some time now. 3 weeks plus I guess.. Hey, I'm having exams kay? Can't blame me for that. I just felt really far away from the music that I love dearly. And felt like I have not been in tune with it. It feels horrible.

It felt like something was missing. And the funny thing was, I feel kind of lazed out. I see it standing there. Waiting to be played by me. And yet, I didn't. I want to play it SO BAD. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. I guess I have the mind set of, since I've not been playing so long. Why not wait for another day to do it.

I think this is what we call as procrastination. I think if I keep on doing this to myself. I'm afraid that I will lose the essence of music. The feel, the warmth, the stories and everything else in it will slowly fade away and its back to square ONE. I DO NOT want that to happen at all! I despise the feeling of beginning again and going back to square one coz I worked hard during the process. I know I am FAR BEHIND from reaching the professional standard. But I am almost there.

And it really felt like I'm rolling down the road. Gosh, can't I ever be consistent!!! I dislike that abt myself so so so much!!! Lord, change my heart! I need You to give me the strength and the perseverence to change myself for the better Lord.....

"music.. let me feel the breeze and the essence from you again.."

Getting Low

2009-05-17T08:29:00.001-07:00

Okay, now.. look at the time. Its already 11.30 pm when I am typing all this. I have never blog at this time before (just to let you know). Btw, as you all know form 5s are having their exams. (If you read other blog owners who are having SPM this year). I have finished my one week exam and preparing for another two weeks. HUURRRAAyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... Yeah, not that awesome at all. Today, I attended GTPJ's 1st WORSHIP MEETING IN 2009!! I really think that what Ps.Gwen said was right. A lot of us just do it like business or treat it as work. It shouldn't be that way. It should be an experience, it should be different everytime we do it. And another thing she said was, we shouldn't think that God only works in a box. And we limit Him that way. Always know and believe that God can work in every way and it is just up to us to bring it.

I have to say this, of course whenever I do sound I will do it with the presence of the Lord. I would always ask Him for guidance and strength. But, I don't really have the joy of doing it. As in, I'm always thinking about 'oh man.. I'm just SO TIRED.. aIyo.. later have to roll the cable somemore la..'.. And I realize today that, that is N0T HOW IT SHOULD BE!! Serving Him is one thing and worshiping Him is another. I'm honoured to serve Him and all. But am I worshipping Him as I serve Him?? Am I a worshipper of Christ? The reason why John(a diciple of Christ) can spot and feel His presence (after Jesus died but rose on the 3rd day) is because He is a worshipper of Christ.

And I realize now. THat right now, my spirit juice is all used up. I have not been worshipping Him and even when I do sound or serve Him right now. I can't feel Him. Its not like He is not with me. HE IS.. He has always been there. Its just that I am not reaching out to Him. I can't let this happen anymore. I need to get back right on track with Him. I feel lost. All these crazy things happening right now. I mean, its not that bad things are happening (can I consider exams as bad??? =P). There is just so much going through my mind lately. I think it is call growing??

I want to take music course next time when I go to college.(classical music).. But I am just WAYYYYY behind. I am not up to that standard yet. I am just so worried that I can't make it. I'm so AFRAID of everything. My parent's keep telling me about how much money I can make being a music teacher or something like that. Yeah, I wanna be a music teacher that inspires my students to love music with a pure heart and play with a pure heart as well. And at the same time, I would really LOVE LOVE LOVE to be involve in the orchestra. ANd YES! Money is definitely very important in the reality world(to live and survive of course).. But what if I just want to do it because I love it? Is that so wrong? I know the road is going to be tough. But tell me, how many successful people in this whole wide world have not gone through tough times in their lives in order to be successful?? How many of us have to go through that grooling process in order to score good results??

Everything as to start small and then slowly it becomes BIG. Through that process, it takes a lot of hard work, dedication and perseverance. I know that, but I am just so afraid that I will give up half way and disappoint my parent's. I really do not want to let that happen. I can't afford to lose. But in order to be successful, I guess you have to taste defeat once then you'll get up right?? Well, if this is what I have to go through in order to achieve greatness. Then I guess I will do it!

Lord, I may be going through a LOT OF STORMS in the future. But I will always be STILL and know You are GOd..

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

2009-05-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

I know that this is a much delayed post. But hey.. At last I posted it kay? Haha. Well, I was kind of disappointed that I didn't get my mum anything this year. I really wanted to get her something by using my savings. But, she urged me not to. She just said the usual normal thing. 'If you be a good girl, study hard and get good results.. That is a good enough mother's day present for me already'. I mean, definitely MOTHER'S DAY is way more special than anything else. Of course being a good girl getting good grades are a good present. But, that is my responsibility as a student and as a child. So, I don't think that it is considered as a present at all.

We did celebrate MOTHER'S DAY with her though. I did say that it is a very special event right? haha. My dad decided to go to klang to eat seafood.(AWESOME!). Don't just think its JUST seafood! But added the fun and the time spent with my mum. It was PRICELESS! I didn't take any pix cause I didn't bring my camera =P. Sowie.. Haha! Theres this funny thing that my bro(Romeo) said that made us all laugh when we arrive there.

Romeo: Eh...?
Me: WHat??
Romeo: Why NO SEA 1??!
Mum, Dad & Rino(youngest bro): *Started laughing*
Me: Aiyo... We are only here to eat seafood la.. why? you want the SEA to go together with the food as well mehhhh???
Romeo: Aiya... You all say eat seafood ma.. So when eat seafood that time of course must have a SEA there ma.. If not.. what is call seafood??
Mum, Dad & Rino: *laughs even louder*
Me: -.-"... Whatever you say la.. Since we're here already. I am not going anywhere.
Romeo: Okay lo.. *tries to push my mum out of the restaurant with him*

Yes, my brother IS lame. Basically my whole family is kind of lame. (Genes from the dad and mum). We really had fun talking eating laughing and talking somemore. I really love it when I see my mum laugh or smile. You will really fall in love with it. According to my dad, he fell in love with her laugh and her smile when they first dated. Aww... so sweet.. Hee.. Well, heres a really short poem for my mum..

GOD made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old,
He made her smile of the sunshine,
And He molded her heart of pure gold,
In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,
In her cheeks, fair roses you see,
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me.

God truly blessed me with an awesome mum. She is never the best and she will never be the best mum in the whole wide world. But she is just perfect for me. =).. I hate it so much sometimes when she keeps telling me that I have to be strong and grow up because she is going to leave this world one day and that she will not be by my side all the time. I know of this ever since I was very young. But I really dislike hearing it. It breaks my heart so much when she says that. But I guess its just the way she helps me to be strong and grow. The one thing that makes me cry and worry about her is seeing all the grey hair on her head. The more I see all the grey hair on her head. It gives me the impression that she is getting older. And it gives me the same impression whenever we celebrate her birthday. ='(.. I love her good night kisses, her silly little childish acts and her tickles every now and then.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY.. AND A HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU!! =] XOXOXO!!

My New 'Husband'

2009-05-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

Yup.. I have a new husband.. And his name is Park Shi Hoo. A korean actor with an extremely handsome face with a rock hard figure and a HUGE smile on his face whenever he smiles.. *drools*. Yes, he is now my 'husband'. *Laughs out loud*. If anyone don't know him or haven't seen him before. He starred in korean dramas such as 'Iljimae' and 'Family Honour'. Which are both one of the most high rated korean dramas so far in 2008 and 2009. Now lets look at my new 'hubby'. Shall we??

Awww.. I dream of angels everytime I look at his smile.. XP

OMG!! *DROOLS* XD

Hot hot hot hot...!!

Isn't he just so awesome?? I love him to bits! Hahahahaha!!

Thank You God for creating such a beautiful creation... Ngeheheh...

Esther Ngeow

2009-05-06T20:54:00.000-07:00

There is someone extremely adorable, sweet and bright that I want to introduce to you guys. She came into this world three years ago. And she is none other than my little miss sunshine.. ESTHER!!! (my cousin sis).. She'll be living with me and my family for a while. Due to some probs at home. Well, not gonna let you guys wait any longer (especially carr ine =P).. Here are some pics!

I know.. She is just so cute right?? She likes to smile a lot.. and I mean... A LOT! Only to the ones that she is close to of course.. XP... hahaha!! Anyway, bye everyone!!

2009-05-01T00:51:00.000-07:00

WILL BE UPDATING ABOUT MY BABY COUSIN SISTER SOON!! SO STAY TUNE! =)

Celebrating & Announcing..

2009-04-30T06:48:00.000-07:00

that I am the world's dumbest person in the whole wide world.. YEAH BABY!! AWESOME Right?!

I wonder if I have my name in the Guiness World Record as the dumbest person??? Well, might as well just check it out right?? MAn.. I just love being told and scolded that I'm dumb..

I'll give it a THUMBS UP! No WAIT.. Make it TWO THUMBS UP! WoooHOOO... I'm so superbly PROUD OF IT! :)

P.S: SARCACISM ROCKS SOCKS!! :D

Growing Pains Perhaps?

2009-04-17T21:54:00.000-07:00

Just when I thought everything is falling apart. You picked me up and tell me. Don't stress yourself like that. The reason why nothing is moving because you're trying to run things too perfectly in life. Why don't you try to let go and let them do their own thing? It is worth the shot. You need to let go. Put it all on Me. Run with My strength and your's.

I listened, but I never took Your words seriously. I wanted to follow. But it seems so BIG to me. That I thought it would be best that I take it all to myself. I've already been burned and burst out for consecutive times. But why am I not listening? I really don't know. I guess I am too stubborn to follow Your instructions. That I hurt myself so much.

You pleaded and spoke to me so many times about it and yet I did not move. I was too comfortable in hurting myself and too comfortable with doing it on my own when I know I can't hold on much longer. Tears come in the middle of the night everyday. Thinking why oh why does this happen to me?

Finally, when You couldn't stand seeing me this way anymore. You asked help from one of Your servant whom You know that I would listen to. And You really shook me up. I am awaken by Your love and Your awareness of me. Now I know, every bad thing that is going on. Is because of my own doings. The reasons why they are not growing are also cause of me.

I will now follow and lead Your flocks on how You want me to do it. Thank You so much for not giving up on me. Lord, You are the best God, the best Father and the bestest Friend that anybody can find in this whole wide world. I am blessed and lucky to have You in my life. I am growing.. And I will continue to grow more and more each day. So Abba, help me and don't let me go. Your all I need.

P.S: My dears.. I will try my best to be a Happy cell leader for you guys.. :).. Don't worry.. I will be fine..

Eyes on Thee

2009-04-08T23:55:00.001-07:00

I seriously have my eyes on Choi Siwon(a member of Super Junior). He is so tall, manly, has a nice body too. I just recently realise that I like man who are slightly taller than me, a fit body, a touch of manliness and cuteness on the face. The one below is definitely perfect. (But I think Channing is perfect too=] ) wahahahahaha!!!! XD... Don't mind me, I'm just a little kookoo right now. Single lady ma.. What to do?? Ngehehehehe....

Just look at him! *drools*...

Super Junior- Sorry Sorry

2009-04-08T02:40:00.000-07:00

Here is a song call "Sorry Sorry" by Super Junior. It's been quite long since I've heard of those guys. Looking even more mature and cooler right now. Not to mention cuter *sparkling eyes*. Their dance moves and their songs are good and upbeat as always but theres a little bit of flavour this time. Hope you guys enjoy watching the video and listening to the song at the same time.

Anyway, didn't go to school today coz I was seriously super tired because of yesterday. I've never been so tired before. Well, I think though I was doing things non-stop the whole day yesterday.. I think its because I've not been sleeping well lately. I've really been not normal nowadays. I don't sleep like I usually do. Which is suppose to be 6-7 hours a day. Nowadays ever since the sports day(which is around feb). I've been sleeping for min 3 hours and maximum 5 hours a day. I always go to bed at 11 something. But I just CAN'T FALL ASLEEP!!!

And guess what?? Until yesterday, it was just really quite hectic for me that suprisingly, I fell asleep! But then I woke up all the sudden in the middle of the night. Felt really dizzy and I totally blackouted! My systems were shut! When my mum woke me up, it was almost six in the morning. So, she decided that I stay at home for the day. (thank you mummy=] )

Just thinking too much about studies, music, God's word and about so many weird and dumb things every night. I just can't stop it!! Am I pressuring myself too much or am I just going nuts? Its like everyday is the same. You go to school, you pay attention in class, you go home and do your homework, you study and then you sleep. Another thing besides than school is of course the piano and the Cell. If I were to take studies, piano and the cell away, guess which one I would take away? Studies of course.. DUH! It has been stressing me like CRAZY! wait.. Scrape that.. Everything is stressing me out!.. I'm not good enough!! I'm not good enough in studies, I'm not good enough in playing the piano and I'm not good enough as a cell leader!

I wanna be the best that I can, but everytime I try to practice it and to be good at the things I do. I get so TIRED and FRUSTATED that I give up! Is this the matter of patience?? Lord, have You not trained me well enough to be more patient in the things that I do and trying to be good at it?? I really failed as of everything that I do. I really gotta pick myself back up. This is not right. I'm not suppose to be like this. This is just not me. I'm good and I know I am. I just gotta activate that switch in my body and in my soul. But how Lord? Teach me and lead me will You please? I promise I will listen.

"To achieve greatness, it requires perseverance, patience, a good mentality and spirit.."

What Happened Exactly??

2009-04-06T01:49:00.000-07:00

Well, in conjunction of my previous post. I would like to actually let you all know what had happened. It started like this. My dad had stomach pain for about 3 days and have been doing BIG business non-stop for 3 days. I've asked him if he should visit the doctor but trying to act all tough and not showing his fears he said 'No'. I asked him, which part of your tummy aches?? He pointed on the left side. And CRASH!!! All those negative thoughts went into my mind. It hurts at his colon. (Btw, there are 5 different stypes and sides of colons in our intestines). It still hurts until the 5th day, he couldn't take it anymore. He was worried himself and I just really said "Daddy, you NEED to see the doctor". And suprisingly he says "Okay I will".

You see.. The reason why I was so freaking worried is because, my grandmother(my dad's mother) died 14 years ago because of colon cancer. Which means that my dad or any of my uncles and aunties could have or would inherit the sickness. When my dad said that side of his intestine hurts. I really can't help but to think of all sorts of crazy things. I really can't bear to see my dad going into surgery room, needles poking into his flesh, going through chemotherapy and becoming bold, and the worst part of all bad things. Seeing him d.i.e. (in the name of Jesus Christ let that word be cut off from my mouth and from my life and my dad's life. Amen! =P)

I was really crying and praying a lot. And guess what?? When my dad went to see the doctor. He came home with good news=). It was nothing serious. But there is an ulcer growing in his big intestine. Which means that he has to watch what he eats and he needs to exercise more and drink more water! All of these things going on, I am just SO glad that my daddy is alright=]. Just want to thank you Father again for having mercy and grace upon my dad. You are truly and awesome God. When You said that You will never leave me nor forsake me, You really did mean it. Thank you so much :). I Love You forever and always.

So Wrong

2009-03-30T23:28:00.000-07:00

Something is really really wrong. I am not sure what is going to happen soon Lord. But whatever it is, prepare the hearts of my families and mine. I really don't want it to happen Father. So please, see us through and let Your grace be with us Father..

Support Earth Hour

2009-03-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE! Let us come together tomorrow to switch off all the lights in our homes tomorrow. It is at 8.30-9.30 pm. Let me tell you something. There is this guy in my school.. When I asked him to support earth hour. He said this...

The guy: Aiya.. no use one la... the earth is going to die already.. so no use switching it off anyway..

-.-"... I seriously can slap him on the spot man. Those of you who have this kind of mind set. Change it NOW! You and I are the one's who have betrayed the earth and so we need to be responsible and fix it! There is HOPE.. So BE OPTIMISTIC and not talk crap like that guy just now. And there is another thing that I want to correct upon. After the earth hour thing. DON'T STOP saving the earth. I repeat.. DON'T STOP SAVING THE EARTH. Continue to recycle and not to litter everywhere. Do not switch on the aircon for VERY LONG HOURS. Switch off the lights or fans when you are not in a room or something. Do your part to save the earth. Lets do this together alright???!

Let US SWITCH OFF TOMORROW!

"We are the enemy of our own disaster"

To CarrIne!!!

2009-03-26T22:46:00.001-07:00

Hey Darlinngg!!! Happy Birthday to you!!! =)... I've known her since we were in form 2. But I was that close with her back then cause she was extremely very good friends with Stephanie. Then in form 3, we started talking and then I don't know how we got so close and now we're Besties!! =D.. (okay.. the so close part sounds kind of wrong) I love you darling!!

Though this year is SPM. It doesn't give us the reason not to have fun with each other right??.. Hee... I am telling you.. This girl, almost know every HOT guy that is in Hollywood. As in celebrities la of course.. That crazy girl.. =P... Not just that, but she is absolutely a fun, smart and a pretty girl all in one. And she can POP REAL HARD as well if you dare to burst her bubble.

If you know what I mean?? ;).. Any guys out there who are interested in her.. Please e-mail me... HAHAHAH!!! (she is so going to kill me for this..) Anyway, Hope you'll have a great B'day celebration today. Or as you said, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow..

There she is... THE BIRTHDAY GIRL!! Love ya darling! Muaxx & Hugss! =)

BEYOND TEARS

2009-03-26T02:35:00.000-07:00

On the 10-11th of April 2009. My church (Glad Tidings Petaling Jaya). Will be celebrating EASTER. There will be an easter drama call "BEYOND TEARS".

Venue: GTPJ

Date: 10(Fri)-11(Sat) April 2009

Time: Fri (8.30pm)-Sat(5.00pm)

Here is a what it is about..

When 21 year old Kevin’s life comes to an abrupt halt, his parents are faced with many unexpected decisions. As their only child’s life unfolds before them, they realize that the decisions they make now will not only affect them. Will they be able to find strength amidst their pain and grief? What will they find when they look beyond their tears?

So please try to come alright? Let us all come together to celebrate easter in GTPJ. All is welcome! I would like to emphasize on the "all". It means, indian, chinese, malay or whatever race or religion you are. You are WELCOME to join us. So please accept my humble invitation. And if you are interested to come and need a transport or something. Please e-mail me at emelia_rockworld@hotmail.com. Will be waiting for your confirmations! =)...

HERE IS THE TRAILER FOR "BEYOND TEARS"!

R.I.P to my baby Bunnies =(

2009-03-26T02:07:00.000-07:00

My rabbit gave birth to six babies last two weeks ago. I was kind of happy about it but at the same time know that there is going to be a lot of work. Feeding them isn't easy okay?? I fed after every three or four hours a day. I am not sure what happened. But after a week, they all died one by one. Look, I know you guys are probably thinking "oh.. she killed the babies" bla bla bla and it goes on and on. I didn't kill them, cook them or eat them. They just... DIED. I think probably is because they should be with their mum. And I don't know. Something else?.. Oh wait.. I forgot.. I only put them with their mum when two died.

I thought the mum will take care of them cause it seems like she was when I was watching her. And then, after two days. They all died. ='(.. Haihz.. I was really really extremely upset you know. I've took care of it and almost my whole one week holiday was occupied by them. Because of the babies, I had to do my homework at a very late time. And I didn't have time for anything else. Gosh.. The own mother also don't know how to take care of her own babies. ZZzzzZZZZ...

Well, I guess whatever that is gone can't come back anymore right?

R.I.P Rabbit Babies.

The New Obsession

2009-03-26T01:08:00.000-07:00

I was just recently so extremely CRAZAY about a celebrity name Channing Tatum. If you guys don't know him. He stared in movies like 'Step Up','She's the Man' and 'Coach Carter'. And he is also a model. But basically more well known for his movies and his GOOD LOOKS =)..

Aaaaahhh..~ Now girls, do you see why I am obcessed with him? The manliness, the face, the body (which I wouldn't wanna show it coz I don't want people to get the wrong idea about my blog =P).. Just everything about him is so breathtaking... *melts* The only thing I can do is to thank God so much for creating such a beautiful creation...~ Haha! =D.. Isn't he just perfect?? Ghahahahaha... I know I am crazy.. Don't worry my fellow christian friends.. I'm not idolising him.. Just totally OBCESSED with him... *drools*... Anyways, gtg now... See you all next time! Loves! =)

P.S: Lord, I will always and forever be faithful to You and only You :)

Loves,

Emelia =)

Finish!

2009-03-15T21:10:00.000-07:00

I had my piano Theory Grade 5 exam today in SMK Bandar Puchong Jaya (B). Which is in my brother's school. I have to admit that it was just okay. Thank God that I manage to memorise the terms on time. It was crazy because I memorised it 2 days before the exam. All of the terms from Grade 1-5. Trust me, NEVER EVER DO THAT! It is last minute work and it is brain draining. There is 2 questions in the exam paper today that was quite unexpecting.

Usually for question no.5, they would ask about the major scale and also the melodic minors and stuff. But this time, it was TOTALLY different. They asked about a harmonic minor scale(that one is normal la..) and what shocked me the most was... CHROMATIC SCALES!!! In the hisotries of theory grade 5 exams. Ever since 2002, they never.. I repeat, NEVER ask about Chromatic scales in grade 5.

I am not sure if before 2002 they got ask or not. But who cares, why suddenly in 2009 they ask for Chromatic scales???!! I know it is easy. But it was really unexpecting. My heart dropped down to my butt man. Gosh, but thank God I was able to do it. Heh.. =P.. Right now, its time to prepare for my Grade 5 practical exam! Which is the exam that I will be taking on july. But hey, preparing earlier is good right? =).. Lord, thank You for Your strength and Your encouragement. Really appreciate it a lot! =]..

Will update soon about other things... See you guyss so0n!!

Loves,

Emelia =)

Nodame Cantabile & La Corda D'oro

2009-03-08T21:00:00.000-07:00

I've been so crazy about these two animes. They are not about fighting, powers and whatever that you always see in other animes. YES! I am talking about La Corda D'oro and Nodame Cantabile. And YES! They are both about CLASSICAL MUSIC!! Me Love!! =D.. But there is actually a HUGE difference about them. Well, just the story line of course.

First, La Corda D'oro is basically about a girl who met this fairy and then the fairy gave her a magic violin and TA-DAA!! She knows how to play the violin. And they had this music school competition thingy. Where it introduce her to these 5 super cute guys who are musical talented as well!! They all fell in love with her music and her as well. I would have to conclude that the storyline was okay but the ending was bad. Because it didn't show us(the viewers) which guy did the girl choose to be with. Never the less, the one thing that I really I really love about this anime is the fact that the characters in this anime are truly passionate and in love with the instrument that they play and that they love Classical Music. With all the emotions going on in this anime. You are bound to feel it too. (for me only I guess, not sure if it works on you guys).

Nodame Cantabile is about this girl name Megumi Nodame who is super duper annoying. Know why I say that? Because she is in love with this guy name Shinichi Chiaki who is also musically talented and she keeps proclaiming that he is her boyfriend or husband(which the guy doesn't even like her and they are not together at all). She drives him crazy but at the end he fell in love with her music and with her. He doesn't really show much of his emotions towards her in the first season. He shows more of it in the second season which is not out yet in Animax but is out in stores. Which I have already bought and watched! WAHAHAHAHA.. I would like to conclude that this is an extremely funny anime. It isn't really musically inspiring as of La Corda D'oro but it really inspires a musician to play more and to practice more.

Here are the opening theme for these two animes. Enjoy! ;)

This is La Corda D'oro

This is Nodame Cantabile.

Loves,
Emelia =)

Classical Music

2009-03-04T23:19:00.000-08:00

I've been playing classical music for all my life ever since I was 6. I never really liked it or understood the pieces and never even liked it. For me, when I was really young. All I had to do was just to play well and enjoy playing the piano. Until last year, when I saw an anime call ' La Corda D'oro'. I totally fell in love with classical music and was utterly inspired by it. And then I thought that it was actually pretty dumb of me to take classical music or MUSIC so lightly before. I am just to amazed by how every note makes a beautiful sound. Its like notes on a piece of paper. But when played, magic comes out of it.

I finally feel and see why some people love classical music so much. Every piece that is played, creates such a phenomena. And the stories being told, can be so so sad and so happy as well. It is everything in this world that you can imagine. It is how you talk, cry, sleep, shout and everything else. I love the sound that lifts my heart and spirits up. I love interpreting it and understanding it. It is just so beauitful.

I am really astonished by how classical music still lives til' now. Though all the composers are dead. But the pieces and the music still lives on forever. Do you realize that people forget about the songs in the 80's and the 90's. But people can never forget classical music. Its like a culture and a lifestyle. I just can't thank God enough for giving me the chance and the opportunity to play the piano. And also to give me a heart that loves classical music. I am going to work hard towards my goal Lord. Help me and be with me. Thank you again Lord. =)

"Music isn't just the melodies and the rhythms, it is everything"

Loves,
Emelia =)

Birthday Wish To My Serena Chew

2009-02-17T02:32:00.000-08:00

I want to really take this opportunity to wish my 'mummy' Serena Chew a Happy sweet 17 Birthday!! One year older already le.. Ehehehe *evil grins*.. I know this year is going to be a tough year for all the Form 5. But, I'll be there whenever you need me okay? =).. Sorry if I upset you sometimes (if i did).. I hope you will for give me.. And one more thing, if you ever need a shoulder to cry on.. Just call me alright??.. Close buds forever! Heres a pic of the really cozy and warm side of Serena.

Btw, I got this from her blog.. The other pics are in my com.. I'm using my laptop now. Mummy, we NEED TO TAKE MORE PICS TOGETHER!! Hahahaha! XD.. Gtg now, see you tmw in school!! God bless you and May this year be a fruitful and a great year for you! Loves & Hugss!! =]

Loves,

Emelia

2009-02-14T04:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY PPL!! LOVE U ALL! XOXOXO =]

Pretty Stones~

2009-02-14T02:26:00.000-08:00

I was suppose to post this last year during Christmas. But I was really lazy to post it until I totally forgot about it already. I just want to thank Sarah for painting these adorable ladybird stones for me and my brothers as a Christmas pressie... =).. I mean.. They ARE really nice you know.. Check this out..

The one in blue is Rino's, the one in brown is Romeo's and the one in purple is MINE=)

I just love the love shape on it's body...

I know! Its so cute right??

Hehe...

Btw, I will update a lot more about my trip to genting during CNY and a dinner I had with my parent's and their employees for more than 10 years.. Lol.. Most probably after my school's Sports day which is on the 27th of feb.. Hehehehe... Patience k?? Love u all! Byebyes!

Loves,

Emelia =)

Disasterous Dicipline Teacher

2009-02-08T00:58:00.000-08:00

I went to school yesterday to help Serena out with the Dicipline room. According to her, Pn. Fauziah(my prefect teacher) needed about 10 people to take all the cupboards, tables and chairs out of the Dicipline room and to redecorate it and clean it or something like that. I helped Serena to call about 10 prefects including myself to go and help out yesterday. But turns out there were only Serena, Timothy, my brother and I over there yesterday. So my dear prefects, this shows how irresponsible you are. Anyway, Pn. Fauziah asked us all to come at 10.30am. I was late so i arrived in school at 11. Serena was there all along since 8 something. Cause she was having cocuriculum activity. The thing that really upset me was that the teachers were having a meeting and called us to come at 1030am.

The other door which we are suppose to put the furnitures in was locked. We don't have the key. And the teacher was in the meeting room. So how do you expect us to do what we're suppose to do?? Serena got so pissed and she decided to go home while waiting for her mum to finish the meeting as well(since her mum is 1 of the PIBGs). After the meeting, which was around 12 o'clock. Cik. Lim(my head dicipline teacher) came down and see if we were there. She spotted Serena walking away, thus called her and talked to her.

Then they slowly walked into the dicipline room and then they started the dicussion. Serena kept on asking Cik. Lim about where is Pn. Fauziah. She kept telling us that she is upstairs doing something. And then they made the decision to postpone the whole thing to tuesday. My brother and I was really disappointed(i'm sure Serena was more disappointed). We were actually more worried about our parent's scolding us. You got to understand, my parent's are business people. Every minute and every hour is important to them as there will be costumers coming in and out of the shop to see things or to buy things. And they dont have a fixed salary every month. Because its their own business and their own shop.

Plus, I was in school by 11 am. And then at 12pm you expect me to go home without doing anything and then you want me to tell my parent's that teacher got meeting so we didn't do anything, come and fetch me now? Man, that just leaves me to digging my own grave you know? I mean, my dad dropped my brother, timothy and I at 11. His shop is at puchong while my school is in Sri Petaling. When I called him at 12.15pm to fetch my brother and I home, he just arrived at his shop you know. My dad totally flipped out and started scolding me. I told him that it wasn't my fault but the teacher had a meeting so everything is postponed.

Then he called my mum. I thought my mum didnt know about it so I called her and asked her to come and fetch me. She knew about it even before I called her. And guess what? Being the woman and the 'tiger' of the family. She scolded me even louder and when I explained why it isn't my fault. She started cursing the teacher (when my mum is really mad.. all those vulgar words come out). And she also said that on tuesday when school reopens(as monday is thaipusam) she will go to see my principal and complain about the teacher. If my mum really went to complain about Pn. Fauziah, I really think she deserves it. Because she is wasting our time, our money, our energy and my parent's patrol oil. It has not been the 1st time but I think that this is the 3rd time for me. I can't remember when was the 1st and 2nd time. But my mum and dad remembered. I want to ask you as my readers. Wouldn't you be angry too if this happens to you? So lesson learned. If next time teacher wants us to go to school at saturday to help out. Give her phone number to our parent's so that SHE herself can tell them what is it about. If we tell our parent's about it ourselves. Kena habis-habis -.-"... Thats all for today... Bye guys~!

P.S: It's not your fault Serena.. Don't apologizee...=)

Loves,
Emelia =)

2009-01-29T21:43:00.000-08:00

Miley's newest song "Fly on The Wall". I would give thumbs up to her for this song. Its different from "7 Things". But its still good. Enjoy guys! =)

2009-01-26T18:49:00.000-08:00

I just think that this pic pretty much says it all.. Don't you think? Haha.. Well, Happy CNY to All of you.. May God bless you all too. Loves =)

Germs & Viruses

2009-01-22T22:36:00.000-08:00

Yes ppl, judging by my absence in school. You have already guessed it. Yes.. once again Emelia Cheng Voon Hooi is attacked by germs and viruses. Ever since, 2 days ago? It started with a very bad sore throat, then a slight fever.. fever gone.. but then... HERE COMES THE FLU AND THE COUGH! weeeee~! What a joy... -.-".. And those medications just makes me wanna puke.

I definitely have a BIG red nose like the pic above.. Which is just utterly terrible.. I cant even breathe properly.. And it even effects the way that I talk.. Syaks!

And the worse part was, I tried to sleep last night with a blocked nose.. And then all of a sudden.. *cough cough cough cough* I coughed non-stop til' I could hardly get some sleep. Hmmm... I wonder... IF I die.. I wonder whats the cause of my death?? Maybe it would be like this... "R.I.P. Emelia Cheng Died of Coughing Constantly.. or R.I.P. Emelia Cheng Died of Breathing Difficulty" LOL! No worries ppl, I'm recovering. Just hope that all the coughing and flu-ing will stop before it hits CNY!!! See ya guys soon and HAPPY CNY PEEPS!! =)

Loves,

*Coughing* Emelia ;)

2009-01-17T02:58:00.000-08:00

Does anybody know where to buy eco-friendly make up or anything that can be used in our daily life that is eco-friendly??? Don't get me wrong. I'm not a girl who wears make up. Only on really really important occasions. Like, going to orchestra concerts, weddings or performances. I just really want to go green and help the enviroment. Plus, eco-friendly make up is so much more better than those that use chemical. And it looks really good too(thats what I heard). I'm thinking, even when I buy a car. I'm going to get an eco-friendly car. Hopefully, Malaysia will establish/invent more eco-friendly items/things. Pls let me know if you know any that I ask from above... Thank you=).. Have a nice day guys...!

P.S: No online shopping pls.. I don't have a credit card... What abt my parent's?? They will screw me if I use their's... Lol.. Thanks again!

Loves,
Emelia =)

Stop Your Rumours

2009-01-12T06:56:00.000-08:00

Rumours rumours rumours.. I've done this post before in my 1st blog. I just wanna make it clear to you guys that I have no crush on any guys. Nor do I like or love or have feelings for any guy on earth alright??! Stop trying to be smart and trying to guess who I have feelings for. Coz theres none! Get it?! None... ! N.O.N.E.. Or to make it clearer to you... N.O.B.O.DY!!! Stop spreading rumours everywhere. I'm fed up with all these false statements. Shut ur BIG mouth and mind ur own business... It may be fun to you. But its annoying to me. Freakin' annoying I would add. It may be a joke to you. But its not to me. Try to put yourself in my own shoes for a few days. And see what kind of feelings do you have to live with. Man, I'm just trying to live a single life and to be free from all those unecessary "sitaution" in my youth/life right now. Give me a break from all these man. I'm going to shut the door where all those unecessary feelings would come. I'm going to shut it all out of my life right now.

My heart only belongs to Christ. And only Him. To go straight to the point. If God says that that man is the one for me. Only then I will open the door. So for now, it is closed. Darliinggs... Believe me and trust me. Don't try to keep guessing and don't try to ask me. Coz the answer is already clear from above. Btw, this my blog. So whatever I wanna write on it. Is my choice. Dont leave comments like "yerr... why are you so mean? writing such post in your blog?". Well, again.. its my blog. I'm sure if anyone of you who have a blog. Would understand too right? Anyway, gtg now. See you guys soon!

P.S: I don't care if the person is u or not. Just get the message...

Loves,

Emelia =)

Christmas in Midv!

2008-12-28T19:05:00.000-08:00

During Christmas, which is the exact date of 25th of Dec. My family and I went to midvalley just to celebrate christmas together in a "modern" way. Lol. We actually stopped and parked at "The Gardens". Cause my dad says that Midv is fully parked. We went around 7 and arrive there at 730. We took some pics and we really had fun together as a family. =).. Christmas is not all about gifts, shopping, hugs and kisses and etc etc. Christmas is about celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ. (just to let u all know, that word "Christ" is not His surname. It actually means Saviour or something like that) To celebrate this love that is amazing and also this love who have saved lives. So anyway, lets see some pics shall we??

My mum & I

Daddy & Mummy.. So cute right? hehe..

From the left, Rino, Romeo, Mummy and Me..

The Cheng Siblings.. Beware of us.. Ngehehehe... RAWR!!

Romeo & Mummy

Rino & Mummy

Mummy & I

We went to a restaurant call(look at the pic).. To have dinner..

We had Spicy Chicken Pie.. Wanna look at the inside??

There u go... It was absolutely delicious..!

Rino's Fried Rice.. It was good.. I mean.. Who could go wrong with fried rice??

Know why he is pinching/holding/touching is mouth?? Coz it was too good that his saliva came out.. Ooooppss.. =P...

This is my dad's Shang Hai Mee.. My mum tried it, and she couldn't stop eating.. How do you judge that??

Romeo's Chicken Chop Rice with Black Pepper sauce. The chicken was nice, really smooth and easy to cut. It's just that, the sauce was a bit too much. Oh well, at least my bro enjoyed it..

Now.. This is my Chicken Chop Rice Marinated with Thai Sauce.. It was really delicious. But it little too sweet & sour for my taste... I'll give 3 stars.. haha!

This is me and my mum's absolute favourite.. Laksa! It was kinda sad becoz, at 1st it tasted okay. And then the more you eat it. It just taste like the quality of the keeps decreasing and decreasing.. Get what I mean??

And then my brothers and I went to the pet shop with my dad..

Aren't these kitties cute?? But too bad, I dont like cats. Kitties eventually grow into cats.. so their the same...

Oh ya! You like to pose eh?? I can do it better than you! Lol!

Im actually not suppose to take pics of the birds. But since I do it without flash. I guess its okay.. Ehehehehe...

Found some corals that they sell there.. They were really pretty.. Man... God is truly amazing..

HAMSTERS! Nah, i'm not a fan BIG of hamsters.. My youngest bro Rino IS A BIG FAN of hamsters... Haha! He was like "HAMSTERS HAMSTERS!! My friends my friends!!".. Me and Romeo's reaction was.."-.-"...

When we are abt to head home.. We took some pics "next" to the HUGE christmas tree..Haha

Daddy

Mummy

ME! =D

Before I went home. I saw this really cute small little cake that I saw in Zen. I couldn't help but to try it and buy it! Here it is...

Mango & Passionfruit cake.. My absolute favourite fruits all together in a cake! Yum yum...

Anyway, thats all for now.. Bye guys!

P.S: will be updating on Chrissy and Yevanne's outing soon.. When I get the pics of course..

Loves,

Emelia

LIITA in Puchong Cell!!!

2008-12-25T19:30:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, sorry for the late update! =(.. On the 19th of dec. My cell was holding a christmas party. And the theme of the party is "Love Is In The Air". It was such an amazing event. Where God really just took over and to be honest. I can really sense is love there. There were abt 3 souls saved! I shall name them, Matthew, Danly and Jun Ming. I am just so proud of them and just so thankful to God! Amen! On that night itself, there were lots of tears and lots of emotions splurgging OUT! Thanks to Jason Lim(my church leader) for setting the mood right. Haha! =D.. At the same time, God was there and He was watching and spreading His presence all around the place. I'm just really thankful and really amazed and overwhelmed by God's power & grace. I was kinda stressed at 1st. Thinking whether is everything going to be alright. In the middle of everything, I almost wanted to doubt that God is going to help me. Which is SO WRONG of me to think like that..! Coz God was there and He helped me a lot. By the help of my parent's(love you both=3).. my leaders, Sarah, shelton, romeo, rino, timothy, christopher(you guys are more than leaders to me) and the pianist, James(thank U man) and everyone else who came for this amazing event. It couldn't have happened if it wasn't for all of you. And thank you to all the cell members who have taken the effort to invite some friends. I really appreciate all your hardwork. Good job guys! =).. You guys have really outdone yourself. I believe that this is just the beginning of everything. 2008 is ending but 2009 is just going start! So, be even more hungryier and thristier for God's presence, love and power! I took a few pics here when Jason came and shared. (so sorry yea, didn't have time to take them earlier =(..)

See that BIG guy over there in white. He is Jason.. haha! He is full with love, thats why we love him.. *winks*

Tim Lam & Eric's photo shots! Take...1

Take 2

Take 3

Bwahahaha... So jialat la both of u... =P..

Anyway, Signing off now!

Loves,

Emelia=)

Updating Soon!

2008-12-19T19:50:00.000-08:00

Hey guys=).. I will be updating about my cell's christmas party soon! Which the theme is Love Is In The Air. Everything was great and awesome and God really took over! Praise the Lord! So see ya soon!