Kissing You Goodbye ='(

Charisse, we've known each other for about 3 years already. We've been besties ever since. You were my mentor, sister, bestie, leader, hunnay and everything else. I love you to death!! Having to let you go and send you off to Boston was one of the toughest thing I had to do so far this year. Seeing you cry when you saw the banner that Jenn Ming made and our signatures on it really tore me apart. It really worries me about whether are you going to be lonely on the plane.. whether your going to cry somemore or not... how are you going to do over there and etc etc.

And it just reminded me of HOW much I am going to miss you. *sobbing*.. When you come back during may, we are going to hang out!! and have sleepovers!! okay okay?? Pls take good care of yourself kay hun?? Rock for Him over there and inspire the ppl around you like how you did over here. God has definitely blessed you in ur life and has definitely shown you favor.. Continue to rise for Him with the gift that He has bestowed upon you.

I love you hunnayyy!!! And I will miss you dearly!! =(...

P.S- Waiting til' the day you come back..=)

3 MONTHS!!

I think you all know what I am going to talk about already judging by the tittle of the post. I am going to NS on the 3rd of jan which is next sunday. And to be honest, I am really really REALLY not ready to go! I know I know.. Everybody say 3 months only ma.. So what? I don't care whether you've been there before or not but its just that 3 months for me is quite long you know. I have to leave my family and friends for 3 months?! What nonsense is this wei? I didn't choose to go to this crappy NS thing u know?

I'll totally be missing out a lot of things. Like, Music Bank, SGB, updates on my fav korean bands, church(GlaD Tidings), music, piano, violin. There are SO many things that I can do. And I have to leave it all behind just because of NS. I have been emo-ing about this since before SPM. But it just suddenly struck me again today. And its CHRISTMAS!!! Gosh.. I am really really not happy. Sometimes I just really wonder whats going to happen there. I seriously can't live without my mp3 for 1 day you know. And I am left without it for 3 months?!!! Lord, SAVE ME!! T.T...

I really feel so let down thinking about it sometimes. But, I definitely know that 3 months will pass really fast. And I'll be reunited with my family, friends, piano, violin, mp3 player, church, and lots of korean boy band stuff!! (muahahaha). I guess I just have to keep on being positive about it and just have fun. I believe that even as the Lord had path my way for me. Whether bad or good things happen. He will always be there to take care of me as long as I partake in it.

No matter what happens, I am going to stay strong and look forward to the day when I can go HOME.

P.S- MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =)

APYAC 2009!!

APYAC (Asia Pacific Youth Alive Conference) 2009!! It was just an amazing and awesome conference!! God really moved every country and everyone during this conference! It was just so overwhelming that I really could not find the right words to say. There were China, Korea, Japan, Cambodia, Philipine, Africa, Myanmar, Singapore, Indonesia and many more countries represented there! It all consist of young ppl like you and I hungry to see the change in our country and hungry for God to move in our country and in Our Lives!

In the next 3 years when APYAC is back again. I am definitely signing up for it! =).. Btw, did I mention that the ministers from America and UK came too? Haha.. xD Here are some pics during APYAC.

Me, Aaron and Crystal.

Aaron and I Take 1

Aaron and I take 2!

Aaron, Audrey and I =)


Xeen Huii, Aaron, Audrey and I

The last day of APYAC was when Pastor Julie asked one youth in every country to represent

their own country.

MALAYSIA!! =)


The Cross that Jesus had died for our sins.

The countries represented there. The flags I mean. Haha.

Taking up our cross and walking with Jesus. Its not light okay. Its HEAVY!!

The young ppl who represented their own country and walking with the cross. I think that this is really a meaningful thing. It really means that us taking the responsibility that God has given us to help the young ppl of our country to realize the living truth. I cried so much that time. Gosh..


NIGHT WORSHIP WITH GT TEAM!! WOhoooo!!! My own church's worship team le. Of course must cheer more!! Haha..

They were rocking it for God that night!!


John playing the electric guitar.. awesome!!

The pics that I am most proud of... (hahahaha!!) The team that ministered through their music that played for the conference. Team America!! The guy on UR left is Tim Gugudan(electric guitarist, he rocks man!), the one next to me (absolute cutie) is Rob Morgan(bassist, he is awesome!), the next to Rob is Aaron Johnson(drummer, he is GOOD!). Btw, they were playing for this husband and wife from America. Their names are Brad and Rebekah.

Don't they both look good 2gether? Haha.. their songs are awesome too! Its really simple and honest lyrics. The best part is that it really ministers me to God. Definitely worth the buy. =)

Anyway, there are actually more pics and more things to say. But, I am not really feeling well and a little bit too lazy to upload everything. haha!! Sorry yea. Hope you guys enjoy looking at pics and catched a glimpse of what APYAC is about. I would have to say this, after APYAC. God really gave me a heart for the nations and for my own country. I will definitely help Him with this. Love You Lord! And thank You for opening my eyes to so many things that many of us are not able to see and understand.

Checkin' out now. Bye!!

WIsh I can play for church one day. I believe I will. And I know I can!! But first, need to smoothen the rough edges around. If not, everybody will pengsan.. Haha.. No seriously. Haha

I LOVE YOU

Woke up at 10am yesterday because I wasn't feeling that well. Christopher came to write/make/compose the song with me for Christmas@Home. Chris wanted to do the tunes for the song and he wants me to do the writing. But we ended up doing both. He did more of the tunes since he has the guitar on his hand and I did more of the writing since it is my song and my story.

We started at 11am-12++pm. Nope, we didn't finish the song at that time. We stopped because we got stuck after writing the verse. So then, we took a break. Which lasted for 3 hours? Hahaha. I took a nap since I was not feeling well. Piano teacher came at 3.30pm until 5pm. Then we continued again at 5pm-6.30pm. No we're not pros. Yes, though we finished the song in about 4 hours plus that doesn't make us pros right? The reason why is because we're running out of time and the event is this friday. We didn't want to make more adjustments here and there because we're afraid that we will spoil the song even more. Lol.

To give you my most honest opinion, I don't think that the song is good. But since it is my first song, I guess I am kind of proud of it. Did record the song down just in case we forgot how it sounds like. Not being to post it yet because the sound quality of my Camera is B.A.D. So yea, will look for someone who has a good camera with a good sound quality soon. No worries, I promise I will upload it here. In the mean time, here are some pics of the procedure on writing the song call. I LOVE YOU.

Here is chris strumming on the guitar trying to figure out the chords on the tune I gave him.

Me trying to figure out the tunes on the piano.

I know the pics is not clear. Sorry about that. In case you are wondering what those are. Those are the chords and lyrics that we wrote down for the song.

Wondering where is Chris? I have no idea.. o.O

THERE!! He is BACK! I think we were arranging and adjusting a few things here and there.

Chris and I got a headache when we got stuck on what to do.

Anyway, this is about it. Wonder who is the photographer? My brother, Rino. Haha! Btw, here is the lyrics and chords for the song. You can try playing it with ur guitar, piano or whatever instrument that you play.

I LOVE YOU

Written by: Emelia Cheng & Christopher Chan, Produced by: Christopher Chan & Emelia Cheng

Intro

E B C#m A (2X)

Verse

E

The day You found me Lord

A

I was lost and blinded

C#m A

When my spirit's hiding

C#m B
In the darkness..

E

Where theres no place to go

A

Struggling and falling

C#m B

To the place where theres no way out

Chorus

E

You save me Lord

C#m

You took me in

A

When everybody sees me

B

As a nobody

E C#m

You clothe me with Your love and mercy

A

And You said

B A

Just know I love You

Bridge

A B

But You never gave up

C#m B

On me

A B

And You never left me

C#m B

Alone

Basically, this song is about when I was in my down times. Though I did not really believe in Him and I did not accept Him as my Saviour. He still came for me and He told me He love me. It touched my heart and I believe Him and has accepted Him as Lord and Saviour now.

Will try to post the song soon. Pls wait kay? Thanks guys.. Hope you like the lyrics to the song. LoveS!

P.S- Will update about APYAC(Asia Pasific Youth Alive Conference) SOON!!

JANG WOOYOUNG <3

As I am such a fan of this Korean boy band call 2PM. I definitely love 1 of the guy in it. His name is Jang Wooyoung. And he is officially my current hubby!!! xD.. Yes we ARE married..*as if*..
I know he is not the oh so "handsome" guy. But he is definitely cute and he has a unique touch on his look. I don't know why. But I am always drawn to guys who looks unique in a way. Like his eyes, smile, laugh or something like that. I mean, I like handsome guys too. But its like after seeing that face for a million times. U'll be like.."hmmm.. why does it feel like I've seen that face everywhere before". Get what I mean? No offence yea. Its just me okay? Anyway, Wooyoung is 20 years old. And I just LOVE him to bits! He has a witty/cute smile, a mischievous, caring, kind, sensitive, talented, hard working and serious attitude. Serious as in, he is serious about the things/ppl he love. Did I mention that he can clean and cook too?? GOSH!! He is so AWESOME!!

Lately, he has been in a bad mood. Because his beloved leader Park Jaebum left the group(check out my "2PM's New Album without Jaebum"Post). To be honest, I am not very fond of that "being too overtly negative attitude" of his. As in, I know the leader is gone 'for now'( I emphasize on the for now because word is that he is coming back soon. And he has a contract to fulfill). But try to cheer up a bit for the rest of the members and the fans man. Cause the rest of the members are going through the same thing as you are and you know it!
But nvm, I used to be like that too. And still are sometimes.

I would definitely want my future husband to be like Wooyoung. But of course there are a few things that is needs to be added. No.1 He needs to be a Christian. No.2 He needs to be a man who puts God 1st in his life. No.3 He needs to put God 1st in our relationship. No.4 He needs to be able to stay positive even in really bad situations. No.5 He needs to be an awesome boyfriend and a future father. No.6 He need not be afraid of commitment. No. 7 He has to love and accept me for who I am. No.8 He needs to be serving God in ANY area in the church. E.g. Be it cell leader, worship leader, singer or whatever it is. No. 9 He needs to be loyal and faithful to me. No. 10 He needs to be funny and being able to be romantic just like Wooyoung. HAHAHA!

I guess thats about it gua. Hehe.. Got a lot right? Haha! But no worries, I believe in God. And I believe that my future hubby is just like what I wished for. And I will be just like what he wished for :)
Btw, here are some pics of wooyoung. Enjoy them as I do! Hahaha!



Pouty wooyoung..








His smile is just.. Gosh... I donno what to say.


Hahaha!! So cute..=)


Recently, this is his new haircut. For the recent album of course. (check out my "2pm's new album without jaebum" post and you'll know why they are doing this dead goth look) If you actually take away the dark eye make up and put a smile on his face. It will look very good=).. I still love my wooyoungie no matter what. HAHA! xD

Anyway, this is about it. Will update more soon! Loves=)

LAST PAPER DONE!!!! WEEEE!!!!

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!! SPM IS OVER BABY!!! I just really really want to dedicate this post to God and my friends and family who have supported all the way through!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO DARN MUCH!!! No WORDS can describe how I feel now. I feel so set FREE!!! Going for outings soon! Yeah!!

WEEK 3 DONE!!

What up peeps! Lol..! Anyway, I've finished week 3 and now waiting for THE LAST PAPER!! Okay.. Enough of being nuts.. Heres the updates on the papers. Had Accounts on Tuesday. Paper 1 was at 8-915am while paper 2 was at 10-12.30pm. Paper 1 was okay as it is just circling answers. If I don't know the answer, I can just tembak. Haha..! Paper was tough as usual. My document was not "Imbang". And they were about 2 questions which I seriously have no idea what to do..=(..

Today, I had science.. It was the same time as Accounts yesterday. But science was A WHOLE LOT EASIER! Even though paper 2 was a bit tough because there were some unexpected questions. Overall, week 3 was better than week 2. But seriously, how can SPM be good?? Lol.. Anyway, gotta log off now. Ekons is on next monday! Pray for me yea.. Loves:)

SPM 1st Week & This Week

Last week, had BM, BI and SEJ. SEJ was awful!!!!!! Not only I can't rmb what to write. But I had panic attacks!! Gosh... How much can a human being take??! I don't think that I am able to pass for SEJ.. God.. SAVE ME!! Anyway, BM and BI was good. Especially BI, its a piece of cake. Okay, maybe I shouldn't take it that lightly. But it is definitely way more easier than BM and SEJ.

This week was Maths, Moral and Add Maths!! I was so worried about Maths becoz I have never been good in Maths. I really worked hard doing exercises and stuff. One day before the exam. I already had doubts that I couldn't do it. But God sent an angel and she gave me a call(yess... I'm talking about you hun=)) God heard my cry and He lifted me up! While doing the paper, even though I don't know how to do quite a lot of questions. I tried my best and stuck through it like a champ!! Praise the Lord Amen??!

Moral was terrible too. I memorized the nilais SO DARN FREAKING HARD!! Few more hours before the exam. I PANICKED! When I opened the exam paper. I totally forgot the definisis'... -.-"... Just.Great. Add Maths was even worse today!!! I had major headaches after I finish paper 2!!.. But thank God.. That it is over now..!! 3 more papers to GO!!

I just want to share with you all that, no matter what happens, how BIG you think your struggles are.. Nothing is IMPOSSIBLE for God!! He will deliver you from whatever that You are going through right now. Though I had panic attacks and stuff. He still calmed me down at the end. And He lets me know that He is with me all the time=)...

GIVE THANKS TO THE LORD PPL!! =]

Cell Group Yesterday! =D

Had cell yesterday like every friday.. Yesterday was just really awesome like everyday friday is. Even though we're not the perfect cell group with over 20++ members like other cells do. But we are all special in our very own ways Amen? I mean come on.. I am more proud of my cell than ever. My members are great(even though they make me wanna kill them sometimes). And we all support each other... We makan supper together every friday night.. We talk, we chat about things.. We share more about God,about life..

We're just like a BIG family from diff sets of parents. Thats right.. We are brothers and sisters in Christ..!! Amen! hahaha...=D... We pray for each other in times of need, care for each other, lecture one another (actually, its only me.. hahaha!! XD). Though at times we may not be happy about the cell. But we stuck through it and we did it together..!! Yesterday in cell, my brothers did word.. And I couldn't be more proud of them(even though we're kind of lost on what they were talking aboutXP).

While typing this post I could honestly tell you that I am crying. Being a cell leader for almost two years.. Really made a change in my life. I grew a lot.. Learned so much about life and God.. About His love for me and His children.. I learned how to be more patient with others as everyone is not perfect. I learned to give others a second chance. I really definitely learned a lot. And I learned and grew a genuine sisterly love towards all my cell members who are not even in the same blood line as me.

Thinking about leaving cell soon and going to NS really makes my heart ache. I really want to be with them at all times and really want to continue serving Him. But unfortunately, I have to go to NS. So I guess I'll be serving Him over there to share the word of this Miracle giving God.

Msg to Members:
Hey DaRLings!! =).. I know I am going to leave soon.. And you won't be seeing me for 3 months next year.. But always know that each and everyone of you have a special place in my heart. And I am going to miss all of you a lot~! You all better be good and listen to Romeo and Rino kay?? Love you all so muchie! Rmb yea.. when I come back.. I want to see all of you having a slight change in ur life and spiritual life kay?? I belive you all can do it!! Amen?? For the one more month that we are going to spend together.. Lets make it the best month ever la kay? (we'll continue it again after I come back from NS kay?? hehehe) I LOVE YOU ALL!! HUUGGSSS!!! =)

HAVING CELL TONIGHT!! ME VERY EXCITED!! XD... GOD BLESS EVERY1!!! I'LL VE PRAYING FOR EVERY1 WHO ARE TAKING SPM!! LOVES!!

P.S: God knows ur struggles.. Commit it to HIM! =)

2pm 1:59pm album without Leader Jaebum=(

Okay, I only have 20 more mins to finish this post until I go back to studying.. AGAIN!! Anyway, one of my favourite korean boyband are having some probs lately. No.1 their beloved leader (Jaebum) left the group about 3months ago because some nosy fan found his my space and in his myspace he wrote"koreans are gay" and bla bla bla.. It was 3 or 4 years ago when he wrote that! He was just a teenager back then. Being American born and having to move to another country, learning how to get used to it, learning how to speak korean while u can only speak english is just tough man.

I don't know what happened to him back then that made him said that but it must have been hard for him and he was alone in korea at that time. But anyway, he apologized for it publicly and yet, korean fans just wouldn't let it go. So instead of troubling his band mates, he decided to leave. But news are are saying that he'll be coming back soon after all the petitions that the fans had signed or made and the "fans" from korea begged him to come back -.-"...

He would either not or will come back. Which I definitely hope he will. Cause 2pm is just not the same without him. As you all have seen on my post tittle 2pm has released their 1st full length album call "1:59pm". I guess any human being with common sense will know why the album is call 1:59 pm right? I'll just make it clear for u guys anyway. Its because without jaebum, its just not complete and they will never be 2pm.

The whole album is mainly about their struggles now trying to stick together as a group without their leader and having to learn that he is leaving and stuff. And having to deal with the fans in korea who just WON'T STOP bugging them about their leader's departure. I mean, they are the reason for why he left anyway. I think that jaebum has really learned his lesson. At the end of the day he apologized and yet ppl just won't give him a break. Until they drove him away =.=".. This album is definitely emo and dark. Even their looks now are emo.. Gosh.. I really kesian the boys. Even though the songs are emo. The whole album is quite good=).. As in the style of the music and stuff.. Even though 2 or 3 songs are with the same chords over and over again..-.-".. But overall its a good album and they really showed their emotions in it. As in, you can really feel their anger and frustation. Thats all it takes to make a good album=)...

From left, Chan sung, Junsu, Wooyoung(my hubby), Jaebum(my hubby), Junho, Nichkhun, Taecyeon(also, my hubby XD)...

Here is 2pm when jaebum was still with them.. One of the pic have taecyeon missing.. Which I don't know why.. haha!

This is the Cover of their new album!!

This is a video of their song "Heartbeat" its a really cool song. Even though the lyrics are stating "she".. But like I said, its actually mainly for and about Jaebum. Okay, I have to really say that I am not really a fan of this video. In a way its quite creative. But its still very... errr... I just don't know how to put it.. I just really didn't like the snake part and the dance moves in the beginning of the song.. But this video really showed our human heart when its in pain and stuff.. You can feel it but they pictured it for us. I definitely hope that they will find success in this album even without their leader Jaebum. Cause a musician being criticized and not getting good reviews of their work.. Is just suicide. But if I'm right, this album will definitely be a big hit.. Anyway, enjoy the video anyways! Gtg now.. Byebye!!

P.S: God told me once to give the people around me a 2nd chance like He always does.. Will you do the same?

SHINee 3rd mini album "2009 Year Of Us"

Yes ppl.. SHINee is already out with their 3rd album! The album name is "2009 Year Of Us". So brave of them to name their new album like that. Oh well, I like that confidence. Haha. Their new single call "Ring Ding Dong" has been released on monday on the 19th of oct. To me, the song is about bad boys liking a girl and trying to charm her with their tough looks and stuff. But their actually pretty fragile and gentle and all they want is her. That sort of stuff. The song is really awesome and I do believe that 2009 is going to be their year.

Man, these boys just won't stop going. I mean, they just debuted last year with their 1st album. And just early this year they debuted their 2nd mini album call "Romeo". And now with their 3rd mini album call "2009 Year Of Us". I mean, don't they need to rest?.. No wonder their so freakishly thin! SM Entertainment seriously need to give them a break la.. Usually artist' debut only 1 album every year. But in their case... I am speechless..

Oh well, at least they don't have to make their fans miss them like crazy. haha!! Here are some pics of their new looks. They were going for the bad boy type of look. More darker I suppose..

Jonghyun(19)- He really looks good with blonde hair you know.

Key(18)- He looks so much better now than with the blonde hair!

Taemin(only 16!!)- Forever the maknae(youngest) of the group=)..

Minho- Irynna's man XD

And last but not least, My ondubu!! hehehehe... XP

Onew(20, leader of the group)- Gosh, hes just so cute! Totally love his new look!! So darn handsome wei.. *drooling*...

Alright, I am going to slap myself and go back to reality. So anyway, here is a video of their new single call "Ring Ding Dong". Hope you guys like it:)

Ring ding dong! Ohhh... I would love to be your miracle onew.. Ehehehe...*in my dreams*

Bye Everybody! Loves & Hugs!

Taekwando Perf!

This year is definitely my last year in school. So, I've just decided to help out for the Taekwando performance since I'm in the club. The peformance was quite short but I believe that our performance was better than Karate. Wahahaha!! The bad thing was, the song that they used was the same with one of the songs we used! Then of course, there were jealousy and stuff la.. they were kind of not happy and said that they wanna redo their performance.. -.-".. Nonsensenya..

The best scene in our performance was when Irynna SLAPPED TERENCE!!
No.. the monkey is not Irynna.. But she does act like one. hahahaha!! I mean, a very cute monkey.. They were demonstrating the steps to self defense. It was just suppose to be pretend "slap". I guess Irynna was a bit too stressed until she really gave Terence a BIG SLAP! It sounded like some1 banged on the table really loudly. Yeah, it was THAT loud.. haha!

When I saw her slapping him.. My eyes grew BIG!! O.O... But like I said it was the best perf of all!! haha! I wished some1 would have had recorded that scene.. Ehehehe.. Anyway, heres a song by Baek Ji Young and my cutie Taecyeon. The song is call "My Ear's Candy". I love it! Thats because my cutie's perf in the video was awesome!! hahaha!!! Enjoy the song and the video guys!!



Saranghae(saranghae), I love you(i love you), wo ai ni(wo ai ni), te quiero(te quiero).....~