Here is a song call "Sorry Sorry" by Super Junior. It's been quite long since I've heard of those guys. Looking even more mature and cooler right now. Not to mention cuter *sparkling eyes*. Their dance moves and their songs are good and upbeat as always but theres a little bit of flavour this time. Hope you guys enjoy watching the video and listening to the song at the same time.
Anyway, didn't go to school today coz I was seriously super tired because of yesterday. I've never been so tired before. Well, I think though I was doing things non-stop the whole day yesterday.. I think its because I've not been sleeping well lately. I've really been not normal nowadays. I don't sleep like I usually do. Which is suppose to be 6-7 hours a day. Nowadays ever since the sports day(which is around feb). I've been sleeping for min 3 hours and maximum 5 hours a day. I always go to bed at 11 something. But I just CAN'T FALL ASLEEP!!!
And guess what?? Until yesterday, it was just really quite hectic for me that suprisingly, I fell asleep! But then I woke up all the sudden in the middle of the night. Felt really dizzy and I totally blackouted! My systems were shut! When my mum woke me up, it was almost six in the morning. So, she decided that I stay at home for the day. (thank you mummy=] )
Just thinking too much about studies, music, God's word and about so many weird and dumb things every night. I just can't stop it!! Am I pressuring myself too much or am I just going nuts? Its like everyday is the same. You go to school, you pay attention in class, you go home and do your homework, you study and then you sleep. Another thing besides than school is of course the piano and the Cell. If I were to take studies, piano and the cell away, guess which one I would take away? Studies of course.. DUH! It has been stressing me like CRAZY! wait.. Scrape that.. Everything is stressing me out!.. I'm not good enough!! I'm not good enough in studies, I'm not good enough in playing the piano and I'm not good enough as a cell leader!
I wanna be the best that I can, but everytime I try to practice it and to be good at the things I do. I get so TIRED and FRUSTATED that I give up! Is this the matter of patience?? Lord, have You not trained me well enough to be more patient in the things that I do and trying to be good at it?? I really failed as of everything that I do. I really gotta pick myself back up. This is not right. I'm not suppose to be like this. This is just not me. I'm good and I know I am. I just gotta activate that switch in my body and in my soul. But how Lord? Teach me and lead me will You please? I promise I will listen.
"To achieve greatness, it requires perseverance, patience, a good mentality and spirit.."
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