Change

So much had happened lately and I just don't know where to start or what to say. Theres 2 things in life that I really dislike most. Which is CHANGE and REJECTION/BEING HURT. Well, been through quite a lot for this week and its just suddenly so heavy that I just somehow feel that I'm not strong enough to bear it. I admit that I did cry. But, it is through Him that I was able to pull through it step by step.

Right now, learning how to let go of some1 really dear to me is another task at hand. I really don't know if I can take another heartbreak or let another person go anymore. It feels like I've let go a lot of things in life. And every time that I do, it feels like something NEW. And every time it happens it is never easier. But harder. :')... I always hated the fact that I have to let something go even though I really love it. Who likes it anyway? But we have to when it just happens right?

Right now, I don't even know what I'm talking abt. Lol.. Its like, everything is splashed on a piece of paper but with very ugly colours. Went to church today and of course, its FATHER'S DAY!! =)... I really cried a lot becoz of what is happening. And at the same time, I felt really really really BAD becoz I'm crying while I should be joyful. Its Father's Day for goodness sake! And I'm suppose to wish my Father in Heaven a Happy Father's Day but instead I'm crying.. -.-"...

While I was crying, I kept saying to God. "Daddy... I'm really really sorry... I know that I shouldn't cry especially when its Father's Day. I'm really sorry that I'm crying right now.. I really am sorry. :'("... But my Father was gracious of me. He told me "Its okay... Just cry... Just don't give up.. DON'T GIVE UP!"... I can't help but to cry even MORE. I just felt like an UNDYING LOVE and SUPPORT from Him just POURED upon me. And I felt His hugs. When I felt all those, I just couldn't stop crying. I COULDN'T!! I HAVE to be STRONG not for myself but for GOD. Because He needs me just as much as I need HIM!!

Its not going to be easy. But I will DO MY BEST because my Father loves me! Right now, I will just take my time to heal while I look upon Him :')



"Letting go of you is the hardest thing for me right now. But doing it without God, would have killed me...."


Lord, I trust in You. Therefore, I lean on You and Your strength right now...


P.S- HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE FATHERS! AND TO YOU, DADDY IN HEAVEN ULTIMATELY!!! =)



*holding on to God*