Losing Myself

Weeks ago, I felt like I wasn't myself at all. I was not responsible of what I was doing. Distracted by the things of the world. No longer being excited about worshipping God. Lazying around all day and doing nothing about. Procrastinating and so on. Yeah, it was really bad. My mum asked me one day" what's wrong with you?". I couldn't even give her an answer. I prayed about it.

And ask myself why? I can't blame the devil for this but myself. A day ago, I prayed and cried like I've never cried a long time ago. Then I felt a great feeling within me. Its like as if I'm back. Then I told myself, that I'm going to go back to where I was. Back to what I'm suppose to do. I'm not gonna stop there anymore. I'm gonna keep going and going and going. That's what I'm going to do. I will learn to be a worshipper! Father, forgive me as I have procrastinated and lost track of myself. Lord, from now on. I'm gonna live in Your ways and take the responsibility that You had given to me. And I will never let go of Your hand Abba. I love You Lord...