Watching...

Watching everything pass me by, slowly but surely. Sometimes I wish I am able to grasp each beautiful detail of it. Sometimes I wish that I wouldn't just sit there and watch, but to be there and go through the pain with it. The eyes see and the heart yearns, but the body doesn't move. Shouldn't there be an instant reflex of action when the heart urges and yearns to do something?

And then I remember, the mind is there. It has always been the barrier to everything beautiful and hopeful. I wonder oh God, when will I be able to act upon the desires that You have put into my heart? To not think twice and second guess myself anymore. When will I be able to not hide my true feelings? To not be afraid or ashamed by what the world sees.

I need You to help me see, the beautiful of every bad ending. And the everlasting joy and peace of every good ending. Let my heart not be afraid anymore. Let my spirit and flesh move to every beat that You cause my heart to. I need You.. And so does my heart, Lord...

Always Seem To Be..

Why is it that everytime there needs to be a boundary towards something that I feel? I'm always able to sense and feel it, but never able to touch and hold onto it. Sometimes it's just too frustating. Knowing that something is there but yet it's so far away. Felt it too many times, I'm tired and I'm getting sick of feeling this way for countless of times. Why can't this just be easy to start with?

I'm sick of just looking at it with silence. I wanna branch out and be able to make it MINE. But how? I just don't know what I can do. It aches and it pains me to feel this way again and again. I want to throw it back into the ocean and let it DROWN. But I think, I threw myself in with it...

God, save me....

My Role Model

Besides than Jesus being ULTIMATE role model in life. My great grandma is my other role model on earth apart from my parents'. Shes 87 this year. Quite young for a great grandma huh? Yeah, I hear that a lot. As humans grow old, every part of our body shrinks. Even our organs. Its kind of normal for her to get sick and get admitted into the hospital. Especially when she has asthma. She is a strong, optimistic, cute, adorable, sweet and gentle soul :)... Shes been in and out of the hospital almost twice a year.

But, even when shes sick. Or in the hospital. She never fails to go to church every sunday, riding on her little old bike. Shes been all alone by herself for the past 25 years ever since her husband died(my great grandpa). Last night I wondered to myself, even with my family and friends around me. Yet, I feel lonely sometimes. And my great grandma has been alone by herself for 25 years. Washing, cooking and cleaning all by herself. I definitely believe that in her spare time, she talks to God a lot. And that's how I know why she doesn't feel alone at all. Because God, is really in her life. She told my mum before, that she sometimes misses her husband. But, because of God.. She is able to overcome the lonely times in her life. When I thought about that last night. I just thought to myself "Wow.. shes such an incredible woman.. I wanna grow to be just like her.." Despite her health and lack of physical support. She is still passionate about God. And even through the lonely times. The ONLY person she seeks, is GOD. I can't help but to cry thinking about it.

Because, its so powerful and yet touching at the same time. My great grandma definitely left something for me to grow on with. Which is to know, that God is with me 24/7. And even during the bad times, know that my faith, love and believe in Him will overcome ALL loneliness and difficulties. I know very well, that even as shes laying on the hospital bed right now. Shes thinking about God, and when she will go HOME:')... I know that she'll be fine for sure. Cause she never stops fighting. Shes a WARRIOR. A WARRIOR for GOD.

" I LOVE you great grandma... Get well soon.. :')"

Giving up on LOVE means giving up on GOD. Giving up on GOD means giving up on LOVE. Yeah... you get the picture.. Its just so hard sometimes. I don't want to cry anymore Lord...



*praying*

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." 1 Peter 5:6-10

:) =) =] :') =') =']

Change

So much had happened lately and I just don't know where to start or what to say. Theres 2 things in life that I really dislike most. Which is CHANGE and REJECTION/BEING HURT. Well, been through quite a lot for this week and its just suddenly so heavy that I just somehow feel that I'm not strong enough to bear it. I admit that I did cry. But, it is through Him that I was able to pull through it step by step.

Right now, learning how to let go of some1 really dear to me is another task at hand. I really don't know if I can take another heartbreak or let another person go anymore. It feels like I've let go a lot of things in life. And every time that I do, it feels like something NEW. And every time it happens it is never easier. But harder. :')... I always hated the fact that I have to let something go even though I really love it. Who likes it anyway? But we have to when it just happens right?

Right now, I don't even know what I'm talking abt. Lol.. Its like, everything is splashed on a piece of paper but with very ugly colours. Went to church today and of course, its FATHER'S DAY!! =)... I really cried a lot becoz of what is happening. And at the same time, I felt really really really BAD becoz I'm crying while I should be joyful. Its Father's Day for goodness sake! And I'm suppose to wish my Father in Heaven a Happy Father's Day but instead I'm crying.. -.-"...

While I was crying, I kept saying to God. "Daddy... I'm really really sorry... I know that I shouldn't cry especially when its Father's Day. I'm really sorry that I'm crying right now.. I really am sorry. :'("... But my Father was gracious of me. He told me "Its okay... Just cry... Just don't give up.. DON'T GIVE UP!"... I can't help but to cry even MORE. I just felt like an UNDYING LOVE and SUPPORT from Him just POURED upon me. And I felt His hugs. When I felt all those, I just couldn't stop crying. I COULDN'T!! I HAVE to be STRONG not for myself but for GOD. Because He needs me just as much as I need HIM!!

Its not going to be easy. But I will DO MY BEST because my Father loves me! Right now, I will just take my time to heal while I look upon Him :')



"Letting go of you is the hardest thing for me right now. But doing it without God, would have killed me...."


Lord, I trust in You. Therefore, I lean on You and Your strength right now...


P.S- HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE FATHERS! AND TO YOU, DADDY IN HEAVEN ULTIMATELY!!! =)



*holding on to God*

Priorities

What are your priorities in life? My aunt called me last night to ask if doing sound(AV stuff) is hard. Well, I just said "Its not really hard and its not really easy either. As long as you have the interest to do it. Then all is well.. :)"... When I told my mum that my aunt is thinking of joining the AV team in the Chinese church of Glad Tidings. My mum was like.. "she got time meh? her own 4 kids also cannot take care and now she wants to join the AV team ar??". If you guys don't know, my aunt is a divorced woman of 4 kids. 3 boys and 1 girl. Its really complicated and mind you that its not God's fault that they got divorced. ANYWAY, my aunt... how should I put it?.. According to my mum's "motherly" judgement. My aunt isn't a good mum.

She never really takes care of her kids and apparently, her kids aren't really her priority. (From my mum's analysis). But then I thought, what does serving God in the AV team has to do with her kids? So my mum explained that.. "I know ur aunt wants to serve God and all these kinds of stuff. But, do you think that, thats what God wants her to do now? Maybe God wants her to take care of her kids le? The bible says that WE as parents' are given the task to take care and nurture our kids as they are given to us as treasures by God. But is ur aunt doing what she is suppose to do? I believe that God would want us to serve Him with the right attitude and all things going accordingly in life. If she can't even do her part as a parent and perform the task at hand thats already given by God, how can you expect her to serve in the AV team? Wouldn't that be serving God hypocritically?"..

Those things that my mum asked me kind of got me thinking. Thats really true. Now, I understand why not everybody are actively involved in church. Coz, this might be part of the reason why. As in, they've got other priorities in life and stuff. But that doesn't mean that their not serving God. As a parent, they serve God by taking care of their treasures(children). Teenagers and kids, we serve God by getting good grades and obeying Him and our parents'. There are many ways that we can serve God and it doesn't always have to be in the church. Mum was right. And she also made a point that we gotta make our priorities right. If your gonna serve God. Serve Him with the right heart, attitude and life. Otherwise, you'll just be doing everything "half past 6" and I don't think that God would like that very much. Its either that your hot or cold and not lukewarn. So yea, setting my priorities RIGHT!

Priorities:-

1. God

2. Family & Studies

3. Church & Friends

4. Future boyfriend/husband

Yup, the things above are my priorities for now as a teenager. It may change after I get a job, get married and stuff. But God will always be NO.1!! =)

SET YOUR PRIORITIES RIGHT PEEPS!

The Place Where It All Started

Went back last sat (5th of june) to my parents' hometown(perak, sitiawan) to witness and help out for my cousin bro's wedding(congrats! :) ). But, the wedding wasn't really my mum's purpose of going back. Neither was mine. My family had an astranged relationship with my grandparents' (mum's side). After what had happened 7 years ago. Yup, we didn't visit nor talk to them for SEVEN years! But, it really wasn't my parents' fault. What happened you ask? Sorry, too private. You would have to be a really close friend to find out ;)..

Anyway, as my bros, mum and I arrived at their house. I walked in 1st with 2 pairs of crocs on my hand(a gift for them from my mum). The 1st person I saw when I walked in was my grandpa. He was sitting down on a chair reading his newspaper(kampung style.. LOL!). He heard me walking in and he turned his head to see who was it. When he saw me and my bros, I think there was a 3 secs pause. I just said "Hi grandpa :)".. He looked at me and my bros and said "Hello.." And then he invited us in and stuff. Then my grandma came out from the kitchen. The 1st thing she did was, she held me and she looked at me up and down. And she said "Waaaa... hooi hooi grow up adi.. Such a big girl already.." I can feel tears rolling down my eyes as I saw her. Because, I just couldn't believe that I'm actually seeing her and my grandpa. I was just so overwhelmed by the whole thing.

And of course, they were really happy when they saw my mum. And of course, my mum was really happy too! =).. We all talked a little. And my grandpa and grandma brought us to the kitchen to have some food (kampung style.. haha!xD)... I'm telling you, my grandpa is THE best chef EVER! The food he cooks are just so DELICIOUS. Its not just delicious but it feels like HOME. =)... Then my bros and I went outside to look at the neighbourhood and stuff while my mum catches up with my grandparents'.

I have to say that God really has a plan for everything. Things may be really harsh at times in life but He has His plans. And He is never hear to harm us. What my parents' went through was really really really bad.. The thought of it sometimes, when I think about the side effects of what my parents' went through in my life. Really just brings tears to my eyes. But, God is ever so merciful and gracious to all of us. He did take some stuff but He didn't took everything. And from the little amount that He took. He gave us back even more than we expected :').. It was just that period of time that was tough... But through that 7 years of hardship.. God was always there. My parents' left Him a long time ago ever since they got married.

But He never left them. And He never denied them as they have denied Him. Even though they went through all these for 7 years. But to me, it was all worth it. The outcome of it all is beyond amazing. Without this experience, I would have never known God and His love. Without this experience, my parents' would have never gone back to God and learned their lessons in life. Without this experience, we wouldn't know what we have lost until we really lose it. (family, friends and loved ones).. I'm really thankful to God that even though the money was gone. But my parents' weren't gone. Coz, I could have lost them in this battle in life. But God shined His light on them and was with them through every trial and darkness in their lives. And even in mine as well as I was struggling to grow up without my parents' presence at home most of the time during those days.

One thing's for sure. HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER. AND HE IS FOREVER GRACIOUS & MERCIFUL! =)

Behind Closed Curtains

Just finished watching the movie "Moulin Rouge" just now. I've seen this movie aired in Channel 413 a lot of times before. But, after watching half way I stopped. Why? Because, its ALL over the place. The costumes. lights. flashbacks, humans... EVERYTHING, were just such a HUGE CLASH. I got a bit of a headache everytime I watch it. Thats why I always stop half way. But today, I managed to finish it! Without trying to confuse myself too much with the colours, lights, flashback scenes, drama, singing, dancing and everything else. I finally understand what the movie means. It isn't just about "she sings, she dance and she dies".. But, its about LOVE.

Moulin Rouge is abit like Pride&Prejudice, but with a sad ending. The main character in this story died of a disease call "dry cough" which sort of means lung cancer as well. She and this man fell in love but their love was forbidden as she lives in a world where ppl think that they are BOUGHT to be valued and loved. She was bought by this DUKE who is powerful and filthy rich. To cut the long story short. The duke wanted to kill the man who love her if they continue to be together. At the end they got together in a most dramatical way on stage(you will have to watch the movie to get what I mean). When they were on stage, curtains were closed and the audiences applaud. But because of her disease, she died while the audiences were still applauding in front of closed curtains. But of course, before she took her last breath. She did said a few things to the man that she loves. Like "I love you..." this and that.. "write a story.. and I will always be with you..." etc etc.. You get the picture.

As I was watching the ending of the movie. I realized that many times in life. It seems like we're okay from the outside. But behind closed curtains and closed doors. We may be facing all the terrible and horrible things that ppl just do not know. Just like theatre. In front of the audience, we perform well and beautifully. Everything looks clean and perfect. But whats behind the backstage. We do not know. I just want to say, that whatever that you are going through behind closed curtains and doors. Some1 UP there knows what your going through. And He cares and loves you. So, never think that your alone. Because He is with you and He sees every tear that falls. Just believe in Him and trust that He will take care of everything. =)...

"And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us, a slain offering and sacrifice to God a sweet fragrance." Ephesians 5:2

Grief..

Yesterday wasn't really a good at all. Failed my driving test. Was so FRUSTATED becoz during practices, my slopes are good and okay... But during the exam... I didn't do well on the slope at all.. In fact, I released the clutch a bit too much and didn't step on the accelerator hard enough and the engine broke down-.-".. I thought I was SO going to pass yesterday but I didn't... -.-".... Even my driving instructor said that I was sure going to pass... Mana tau? This happened... Gggrrrr... How can I not be frustated? I was doing fine all the while and suddenly this crap happens! Haihz... I was really grieved about it...

And really wasn't satisfied at all. I felt even WORSE when one of the worker there (an old malay dude...) SO SARCASTICALLY said to me "Amoi~ turun turun... awak sudah buat cukup baik... sudah SANGAT baik la amoi~"... -.-!!... The way he said it was SO freaking sarcastic man!! I was so clueless on whats going on and was in a state of blurness already and yet this uncle came to me and tried to make fun of me... I wanted to just ask him to SHUT UP wei...

Anyway, went home and told my parents' about it at night... I got so worked up about it and got even MORE angrier... And I CANNOT believe that I cursed! Yes... for the 1st time in SUCH A LOONNGGG TIME... Emelia Cheng Voon Hooi cursed... -.-"... Nope.. not the F word.. But a mandarin word that my mum always used when shes EXTREMELY mad... And I have to say that after saying it.. I was NOT PROUD of myself at all. I could feel my Holy Spirit calling. He must've been like.. "Aiyo.. Emelia... why act on your grief??" Yup, I felt really bad. Went home to repent and apologize to God. The thing is, many times in our lives. Failure, challenges, problems, obstacles and etc can bring us down and we may allow grief to take over us. I really allowed it to take over me yesterday. I know that to you people, probably cursing and stuff is nothing. But do you realize that the more often you do it, the more you get addicted to it. From cursing, it can lead to hurting people around you or even yourself. And, its a RUDE thing to say.

So yea, what I've learned yesterday is to not let gried take over us. And any other negative emotions to drown us. I can say that I was kinda drowned by it yesterday. But I'm all okay now with His words and reminders. Thank You, God :)



"The intergrity of the upright guides them, but the unfaithful are destroyed by their duplicity." Proverbs 11:3

Yeah... I Miss You :)

Chris Tomlin - Unfailing Love (with lyrics)

When the song says, "And everything.. You hold in Your hand.. Still You make time for me.. I can't understand".. I truly cannot and can never understand why can God love me and YOU so much.. His love is just too overwhelming.. And its too MUCH... TOO MUCH... I just can't describe how much I love and adore You Lord.. Because of Your unfailing LOVE... Yeahh... Your unfailing LOVE..

Waiting... Hmmmpphh..

hhhhmmmmphhss... I'm right here waiting... *smiles/pouts*

EXCITED!!

YUP!! I'm really really REALLY EXCITED!! About what you say?? Guess la... guess guess guess... *clock ticking* *3 DAYS later....*

-.-"....



OKAY! nvm.. xD... I'm uber excited for COLLEGE!! YESH, COLLEGE!! I know its another few weeks away. Or should I say in about a month or so. BUT! After rotting at home for so so so SO MANY months.. I tak boleh tahan adi... MUST DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!! MUST STUDY! Plus, I'm so excited to learn ALL about nursing! :)... Weeee~ *jumps up&down!* Hehehehe...



I'm going to be like the smartiest smarty PANTS in coll. Yes, the kid that answers everything the teacher asks'... (as if.. xP)


And switch to NERD mode whenever theres exams and stuff... Lol...

Warning: The excitement for college is not permanent. xD

Submission

The dictionary says that submission means "The act of submitting; the act of yielding to power or authority; surrender of the person and power to the control or government of another; obedience; compliance." Wow, its a lot of things all together. Today is my 7th day of fasting and prayer and I sensed God giving me the word "Submission". As what the dictionary explains, submission is obedience, surrender and submitting to the highest authority. To me, its God that I should submit to. I'm really not sure how to do ALL of those things together that equals to submission.

Its going to be quite tough though.. I could hardly obey Him at all times and now He wants me to submit to Him..? O.O.. I kinda wondered today... "Father, aren't You asking for too much? Ehehehe...".. But I found this scripture.. and it tells me why I should..

"Where do wars and fights come from among you? Do they not come from your desires for pleasure that war in your members?....... Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you" James 4:1,7


Thats why... And I know that, God isn't asking becoz He wants a lot from me. Its becoz He loves and cares for me. And He just want me to stay close to Him and becareful:).. Love You Lord:)..

*being submissive*

Me is STRONG!!

YESHH!! I'm a STRONG WOMAN! xD... A friend of mine told me to be strong last night. Because, God can only use me mightily if I am. I definitely want to be strong. Not just physically la.. But mentally and spiritually for sure! I realized that, if I'm not strong. I can't accomplish a lot of things. Thus, time is wasted. 2nd day of fasting&prayer today. Being strong really spoke to me for sure. And asked the Lord to grant me the strength, courage, boldness, wisdom and focus in everything that I do.

I'm already 18. Okay, maybe not officially 18 yet. But going to be soon.xD.. I gotta take things like a big girl already. Of course I will probably cry and stuff. But I always know that He is my refuge, fortress and strength. I can always look to Him:).. The world is not going to end even if ONE bad thing happens. YEAH! BE STRONG!! *shows tough face* GGGRRRR.... xD





Yeah.. You better watch out cause those are some guns that I have there.. *kononnya* xP



"Imma whip you upside down if you ever DARE cross my LINE! "... Lol.. scary betul xD
OKays.. Gotta chao now! RAWR!! xD


"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

"Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them." Joshua 1:6

*being strong*

Autumn Leaves:)

I remembered the 1st time I saw autumn leaves,(on TVxP)it was when I was a little girl. I don't know why, but autumn has always been one of my favourite seasons. Yes, before spring. Haha.. I've always been fascinated by the warm and calming colours of autumn and also the shape of its leaves. I know it sounds unusual but I like them a lot:).. Looking at the colours and the leaves just somehow calms me down. Me likey! :)

Isn't it warming and wonderful? =)

Ah yes... The beautiful autumn leaves...

Woi... Little gurl! Becareful to where you throw those leaves! Lol.. So random la.. xP...

Bring me to you, AUTUMN!! Weeee...~ ;)

The Path Where I Drive/Crash:P

Driving lesson was really bad today. Got scolded a LOT by the uncle today. He almost wanted to hit me a few times. I know and can feel it. But nevermind. Its over now. While I was driving and getting scolded by the uncle I was praying a lot and asking peace from God. I realized that, life is not easy task at all(duh).. just like driving.. You tend to drive through a few holes, engine dying, and also a lot of other things here and there. But all in all, thats life.. The road ahead may seem so far and sometimes tough..

I might just crash & burn sometimes... and really hurt myself badly. :(

But I know that I can always talk to Him and count on Him.. :)

BLESSED MOTHER'S TO YOU MUMMY!!!! :)... BIIIGGG HUGGGSSS & KISSSESS!!

Its amazing! Usually, when ppl play this piece. Their dynamics and articulations are not STABLE at all. Since it is SUCH an EXTREMELY hard piece:P.. But she plays it REALLY WELL. In fact, she played it AMAZINGLY. Look at how her fingers moves. Its so natural! She displayed and interpreted it in her own style and own way. AMAZING *applause*.





This piece, is my ALL time favourite piece. It just sounds like a beautiful beginning to EVERYTHING. Its so refreshing, friendly and breath-takingly beautiful.. Ahhhh~ I can listen to this all DAY!!

Speaking of BOLDNESS?

Read Acts chapter 4 just now. The thing that spoke to me most about it is, the strength and BOLDNESS that the Holy Spirit gave Peter&John to stand up to the rulers, elders and teachers of the law. When the rulers, elders and teachers of the law ban them from spreading the good news that Jesus is the Messiah and had died on the cross for us. It was because that they saw how God healed the crippled man through Peter, they felt threatened because they were the ones who wanted Jesus to be crucified. When the ppl going in and out of the temple saw what Peter&John did to the crippled man. Many saw and believed in the Lord.

Thats why the rulers, elders and teachers of the law felt threatened. Okay la, its very long for me to keep on typing "rulers, elders, and teachers of the law".. Lets sum all of them up in 1 nickname kay? I shall call them.. "Bad AhPeks".. Okay? Nice right? Hahah!xD.. So, when Bad AhPeks ask Peter&John to not spread the good news and warned them that if they do they will be punished, jailed, etc etc. But Peter&John replied"Judge for yourselves whether it is right in God's sight to obey you rather than God. For we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard."

What I'm trying to say here is that, a lot of us as Christians. We've heard, seen, smell and taste of God's realness and GLORY in our lives. But we dare not take that step of faith for Him to go share the good news(the gospel). Some of us don't even care at all. Its like, " save myself then can already la.."... But, this is NOT the love that God has given us. He has given us the love that SHOULD be spread all OVER THE WORLD! Let the Holy Spirit FILL you with BOLDNESS and STRENGTH TO GO and make a STAND for our Father in Heaven who loves us so much. We can do this! God did not give us the attitude of timidity but the attitude of going OUT THERE and the POWER TO CHANGE! Lets do this together and take the example of Peter&John.. Amen? :)


"He is the stone you builders rejected, which has become the capstone. Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved." Acts 4:11-12

I WANT TO KILL MSN!!!! GGGRRRRRRRRRR

Needs and not Wants

Did my devotion just now. Doing my devotion on the book of acts. Read Acts Chapter 3 just now. Used the BK book of Acts that Wai Yip borrowed me. I learned a lot there. But then, I didn't felt really FILLED by the word and the spirit and decided to reread it using my Bible. Read halfway until it talked about the crippled beggar that is being placed in front of the temple called Beautiful to beg for money and stuff, then I stopped and realized something.

When the crippled beggar was begging for money(to Peter& John). Peter looked at him and said.. "Look at me!" so the beggar looked, expecting money from them. Then Peter said.. "Money I do not have.. But what I have I give you. In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth.. WALK!".. So then the crippled beggar starting feeling a lot of strength on both of his legs.. And started walking.

You see, the beggar WANTED money to feed himself and things like that. But it was God who KNEW what the crippled beggar NEEDED. From God through Peter, the crippled beggar is HEALED! And you might ask, whats the use of his legs being healed again? The reasons are, No.1.. Isn't it good that he is able to walk like any normal human being already?.. No.2.. Since he is able to walk.. He can look for job.. No.3.. Since he can look for a job, it also means that he is able to feed himself everyday without begging for money. No.4.. He doesn't need to humiliate himself anymore by begging in front of the temple and being looked down upon by the public.

Isn't God awesome? Sometimes, we think that what we WANT is what we NEED. But very clearly, that God knows what we NEED. Our WANTS sometimes can be of evil intentions. Thats why sometimes we wonder. Why doesn't God give me this and that?? Have you ever thought that its because its not for you to own or to have at all/at this moment? Have you ever thought that what you want might harm you for the rest of you life/at this moment? I'm guessing that the answer is no right? Anyway, God knows what we NEED and therefore He gives us of what WE NEED instead of what we WANT. The WANTS and all those things will be persecuted by God to decide whether is it the right time or whether is it the right thing for us. But all in all, for sure God will give us what we NEED 1st. For sure we will be hardened, hurt and not satisfied because we do not get what we WANT. But FOCUS on what you NEED. Because, with the NEEDS that has been given to you by God can be used and will bring you to a LOOONNNGG WAY.

So yea, trust in the Lord for He knows what is BEST FOR YOU! =)

Hiding Place

He is my Hiding Place. To shield me from the world that always wants to kill. To shield me from the tears and everything bad. He can be UR Hiding Place too:)

HE LOVES YOU=)

His Love that brings The "One"

Was watching this Singaporean drama just now. This woman and her husband. Shes always worried that she'll look old and stuff (which she doesn't). She gets really jealous and scolds her husband like godzilla whenever her husband stares or accepts the flirt from another woman. As I was watching, I felt that partly it was really funny and partly I pity both parties for having to suffocate each other like that. HahaxD.. And then I thought and realized, I would never have problems like that in the future with my future husband. Because, the "One" in my life in the future.


Would be some1 who wouldn't let me worry abt all these things coz he is given to me from my Father in Heaven:) Whom He has chosen rightly for me and me for him =).. And then at the end of the drama. Theres this couple who hugged each other and embraced each other. I ALWAYS wanna know how it felt like to hug a man that I love. But I always know for a fact that some1 in my life have always been there hugging me through the bad and the good times:).. My Daddy in Heaven=).. When I was born as a baby, as a little girl, a woman and an old woman in the future. Until I go HOME. Hes always there to hold me tight.. And this thought made me tear.. :')



When I was a baby.. He held me close and loved me in every bit that I am.




Even when I was a little girl.. He held me at all times.





Even til' now or in the future.. I know that everytime I cry He is there to open His arms for me. His hugs, encouraging words & LOVE is all that I need to get through the day.
And 1 day, I know that He'll send the "one" into my life. But I know that He will never leave me or him. He will hug us both together in unity=).. Because of God's love. And my love to Him. I believe that I will be able to love the "one" in my life unconditionally and sincerely. As I love God more and put Him as no.1 in my life. I am able to give unconditional love to the ones around me and also to my future hubby=).. I love You Daddy.. And thank you for "him".. Even though I do not know who it will be right now. I AM THANKFUL for the THINGS TO COME! =)






"In the midst of all the ppl and the maze in the fields. I found you because God love us both that He brought us together =)"...

U GUYS HAVE TO WATCH THIS! =)

This song really touched me. Especially the chorus where it sings "Majesty.. Majesty.. Your grace has found me just as I am.. Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.. We're singing Majesty.. Majesty.. Forever I am changed by Your love.. In the presence of Your Majesty.."

LETS JUST WORSHIP UNTO THE LORD :)

Missions Trip

Been wanting to go to missions trip ever since last year when I went for APYAC. But, when WaiYip invited me to his church for this Missions conference. It impacted me and taught me more abt missions. God asked me.. "Where are you?".. My answer, (the same as WaiYip's) is whenever I want to obey and am ready:).. And, I realized that there are so many unreached groups of people. It just really impacted me to go forth and to FIND for God. So yea, bros and sis' in Christ. We have got to help God FIND and to SPREAD THE GOOD NEWS!!! :)

"For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have ETERNAL LIFE" John 3:16

Going to FIND. And it starts in our own HOME:)

D-I-S-T-R-A-C-T-I-O-N-S

When you think of distractions. What comes to mind? Internet, parents'(not that their bad distractions:P), music, problems and etc. Anything can be a distraction just as long as it takes ur attention away from doing the important things. I think, the most distraction I've got is when I am doing my TAWG(Time Alone With God). A friend of mine told me that he had lack of dicipline during his TAWG, mostly because of the distractions around. And it made him felt empty inside. I think, a lot of us christians have this problem. And its really important to know how to avoid these distractions during our TAWG.





Before we do our TAWG. I think its really important that we pray against the evil one 1st. Because the evil one is capable of distracting and disturbing our TAWG. Hence, all these distractions come and we give into them. Pray for strength to have the consistency in our TAWG. And also pray for the strength to stand firm in His presence whenever distractions come. Then only you start ur TAWG. I am sure that even as God says that He hears our cry He will hear that important prayer before our TAWG as well:).. During TAWG, be sure to SURRENDER all that you are to Him. I believe that as your fully into Him and into His presence during TAWG, no distractions will come. Even if they do, you will be able to withstand them. Therefore, it gives the devil no power to disturb ur intimate time with the Lord at all. YEAH! VICTORY IS OURS!! :)





YEAHHH~ JUMP FOR VICTORY YO!! haha! xD.. So yea, just do whatever thats important. Most importantly, just enjoy ur TAWG!! :)



"20 For no one can ever be made right with God by doing what the law commands. The law simply shows us how sinful we are. 21 But now God has shown us a way to be made right with him without keeping the requirements of the law, as was promised in the writings of Moses and the prophets long ago." Romans 3:20-21

Cuppcakes, YUM!

YEAH!! *clapclapclapclap* xD.. haha! I love cupcakes! They don't just taste yummy but the decos on them are so pretty! Mind you that although I love cupcakes. I only eat them once in a very long time. Too much sweetness isn't good for health and also for my teeth. Haha. Check these yummies OUT! :)

So cute! hahaxP



Nopes.. Its not chickens, eggs and stuff.. but its cupcakes! So nice.... *__*

Look! their so pretty that flowers even grow on them! *sarcasm* :P

Aaaahhh....~ *__*

ELMO is so famous that hes even on the cupcake!! *wanna eat some..* WAIT! How can I eat my Elmo?! *shakes myself*... xD



Elegant, simple and nice:)

Signing out NOW! XOXO

Random

Mmmhmmm... *nods+speechless*

ELMO! :D

Awwww.... I know you love me Elmo:) xD... Sorry la! Can't help myself! Ehehehe... Isn't he the cutest? Just to let you know a little secret of mine. Elmo used to be my childhood 1st love. NgehehehexD... He's just the most adorable little red monster. Who doesn't love Elmo? You tell me?? Haha.. Just to let you know.. Elmo is in his 30s right now and still loving the whole world. Haha!xD..

Yes.. Its true that Elmo has his own show call "Elmo's World". I'm sorry Elmo.. I love you but I'm not really a fan of your show:(.. But, my baby cousin sister does! :D.. So yea, you've got yourself some pretty cute fans over there.. Wait... *slaps meself* why am I talking to him while he doesn't exist?? Lol... Well, he used too when I was a little girl.. (in my dreams:P).. I SO WANT an Elmo plushy. The thing is, there ARE Elmo plushys everywhere. But, they cost quite a lot. Parents' don't wanna buy me 1 since I'm old enough now. But, I still want 1! :P.. So yea, friends out there.. B'day pressie pls??? Hahahah! xD.. Okay, gotta chao now.. Since Elmo said "Elmo loves you".. Heres someone very special in my life who would like to say something to ALL OF YOU! :)

YESSHH! JESUS LOVES YOU! *MORE THAN YOU KNOW:)

GET GREEN:)

Yes, the cute little puppy there says it ALL! FIGHT DIRTY and GET GREEN! Stop littering around, and STOP making mother earth your DIRTY HOME. Lets take the initiative to make mother earth HEALTHIER and a BETTER PLACE FOR EVERYONE to live in!

Do you know that plastic is identified as the most common form of ocean litter? When plastic enters the marine food-chainit devastates marine life and even affect human when they consume seafood that have eaten plastic debris.

This is what we have ALL BEEN EATING! Ah ha! See that now?!

It even gives little girls tummyache..:(

And you start puking continously like Mr. Pumpkin over here does. (wanted to put real human puking pics, but wouldn't wanna ruin your appetite ;) )

SO, what do we do now?? START TAKING CARE OF MOTHER EARTH! GO GREEN! PEACE.OUT!

The Last Song

The Last Song is a novel written by a famous novelist/author who also wrote "A Walk to Remember", "The Notebook", "Dear John" and now the latest "The Last Song". I have the BOOK!!! wahahahaha! xD.. One of the BEST novels that I've ever read in my whole life. Seriously! Its not just about love, kiss here kiss there. No, you won't really get much of that from Nicholas Sparks' books. It has a spiritually thing going on*thumbs up*, love, hope, trust, believe.. And for "The Last Song".. It talks about finding our way back HOME. Wow.. That alone sounds so awesome to me:).. Heres the cover of the book(with movie poster on it)



Yes, the lead actress is Miley Cyrus and the Australian hottie is Liam Hemsworth*drools* haha! xD..



This is actually the original cover and I LOVE IT! =)



This is LIAM HEMSWORTH! An Australian.. aahhhh~ Australia.. Land of Hotties.. hahaha! xD

Let me give you a short synopsis of the book. Seventeen-year-old Veronica 'Ronnie' Miller's life was turned upside-down when her parents divorced and her father moved from New York City to Tybee Island, Georgia. Three years later, she remains angry and alienated from her parents, especially her father ...until her mother decides it would be in everyone's best interest if she spent the summer on Tybee Island with him. Ronnie's father, a former concert pianist and teacher, is living a quiet life in the beach town, immersed in creating a work of art that will become the centerpiece of a local church. The tale that unfolds is an unforgettable story about love in its myriad forms - first love, the love between parents and children - that demonstrates, as only a Nicholas Sparks novel can, the many ways that deeply felt relationships can break our hearts ...and heal them.

Yup, thats practically about it. Itching to have the book?? I HAVE IT! And not borrowing it to any1!! Muahahahha! It cost a LOT kay?? So yea, sorry ppl! :P.. I was blessed to be able to buy it at a 20% discount (MPH warehouse sale that day).. Ehehhehe.. Original price cost about RM60++.. The book is thick. So even at RM60++ its all worth it:).. It made me cry kay? It even made my guy friend cry when I borrowed it to him(thats when I decided not to borrow it to any1 else anymore. Thanks to him!). So yea, its really an awesome book. Grab it ppl! :).. Thats all from me today!



~!CHAO!~**