Its Been Long

It has been long ever since I was intune with music. Exams are over. During exams, it was really hard for me to practice the piano as I was really focused on studying. And, I've not been listening to classical for quite some time now. 3 weeks plus I guess.. Hey, I'm having exams kay? Can't blame me for that. I just felt really far away from the music that I love dearly. And felt like I have not been in tune with it. It feels horrible.


It felt like something was missing. And the funny thing was, I feel kind of lazed out. I see it standing there. Waiting to be played by me. And yet, I didn't. I want to play it SO BAD. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. I guess I have the mind set of, since I've not been playing so long. Why not wait for another day to do it.

I think this is what we call as procrastination. I think if I keep on doing this to myself. I'm afraid that I will lose the essence of music. The feel, the warmth, the stories and everything else in it will slowly fade away and its back to square ONE. I DO NOT want that to happen at all! I despise the feeling of beginning again and going back to square one coz I worked hard during the process. I know I am FAR BEHIND from reaching the professional standard. But I am almost there.

And it really felt like I'm rolling down the road. Gosh, can't I ever be consistent!!! I dislike that abt myself so so so much!!! Lord, change my heart! I need You to give me the strength and the perseverence to change myself for the better Lord.....






"music.. let me feel the breeze and the essence from you again.."